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humm.. you know the whole "BEST FRIENDS FOREVER" saying.. i think it should be "BEST FRIENDS TIL IM BORED WITH YOU" lol.. whatever though.. it just shows when you need people the most, nobody is around...
like the whole christmas spirit shit.. sorry i dont really have any, i'm not gonna lie, i'm kind of dreading christmas. Its my first christmas without my mom.. and thats not right.. i'm sad/pissed/bitter/depressed/lonely/irritated and none of my "friends" want me around.. i feel like i have to beg to just get there attention and i dont think thats the way "FRIENDSHIPS" should be... and i'm really hurt.. i just want everything to be the way it used to be, when my "FRIENDS" really did love me, and when they really did want me around.. now i feel when i hang out with them its cause the person they really wanna hang out with is busy, or they just feel sorry for me cause i have nobody else to hang out with.. im like so to the point where i just delete them completley out of my life, beacuse its hurts to much to be so ignored by them.
I just want..
my friends back
my mom
and stacie is back.. i didnt realize how much i missed her until brits.. we alwayz had so much fun together.. and i know i talked a lot of shit, i'm not gonna lie, but i regret it, because she is not as bad as i thought.. we just had a falling out and a lot of friends do that.. but i miss her, and i'm really glad to see her around.. she was always there and i think thats what i need.. friends who are actually going to be there when i need them.. or friends who wanna come to me cause they actually miss me..
this has by far been my worst year.. for sure..
like the whole christmas spirit shit.. sorry i dont really have any, i'm not gonna lie, i'm kind of dreading christmas. Its my first christmas without my mom.. and thats not right.. i'm sad/pissed/bitter/depressed/lonely/irritated and none of my "friends" want me around.. i feel like i have to beg to just get there attention and i dont think thats the way "FRIENDSHIPS" should be... and i'm really hurt.. i just want everything to be the way it used to be, when my "FRIENDS" really did love me, and when they really did want me around.. now i feel when i hang out with them its cause the person they really wanna hang out with is busy, or they just feel sorry for me cause i have nobody else to hang out with.. im like so to the point where i just delete them completley out of my life, beacuse its hurts to much to be so ignored by them.
I just want..
my friends back
my mom
and stacie is back.. i didnt realize how much i missed her until brits.. we alwayz had so much fun together.. and i know i talked a lot of shit, i'm not gonna lie, but i regret it, because she is not as bad as i thought.. we just had a falling out and a lot of friends do that.. but i miss her, and i'm really glad to see her around.. she was always there and i think thats what i need.. friends who are actually going to be there when i need them.. or friends who wanna come to me cause they actually miss me..
this has by far been my worst year.. for sure..