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VERY stressed, very crying.
I'm going to lose my best friend, possibly by choice. It seems like I am tearing him and his family apart. I feel like COMPLETE crap. Seriously. It's all my fault. I wish I didn't have such a negative influence on him. I didn't mean to change his attitude. As a matter of fact, I told him to stay in with the family more often. They want him around and it's healthy for him to be around him.
I am doing this for him. He needs this more than anything. I feel so bad about the way things have been. I don't know if it's good or bad to be in love with your best friend but I am in love with him and I just want the best for him. I want things to work out now for what will be best in the future.
He's a real smart boy. He's a great kid, honestly. He's got a big heart and I don't think the people who deserve to see it get to as much as they should. I feel so bad for making things end up this way. I don't want to be apart from him, as much as it is going to hurt me too.
"If love is a labor, I'll slave to the end."
I'm so stressed. I need a break from reality. Something so unreal.
ON THE SLIGHTLY BETTER SIDE - I got another anole/lizard today. :D I am really happy. I'm not sure what it's name is.. although I never really had a name for the first one. They're too precious.
I'm getting off of here, too upset for a journal to understand but enough for people to call names and talk shit.
I'm going to lose my best friend, possibly by choice. It seems like I am tearing him and his family apart. I feel like COMPLETE crap. Seriously. It's all my fault. I wish I didn't have such a negative influence on him. I didn't mean to change his attitude. As a matter of fact, I told him to stay in with the family more often. They want him around and it's healthy for him to be around him.
I am doing this for him. He needs this more than anything. I feel so bad about the way things have been. I don't know if it's good or bad to be in love with your best friend but I am in love with him and I just want the best for him. I want things to work out now for what will be best in the future.
He's a real smart boy. He's a great kid, honestly. He's got a big heart and I don't think the people who deserve to see it get to as much as they should. I feel so bad for making things end up this way. I don't want to be apart from him, as much as it is going to hurt me too.
"If love is a labor, I'll slave to the end."
I'm so stressed. I need a break from reality. Something so unreal.
ON THE SLIGHTLY BETTER SIDE - I got another anole/lizard today. :D I am really happy. I'm not sure what it's name is.. although I never really had a name for the first one. They're too precious.
I'm getting off of here, too upset for a journal to understand but enough for people to call names and talk shit.