Today = Dumb.
I woke up all excited about tonight (Blood Brothers/Against Me! show). I didn't have a Fest Pass so I checked the site and it said that you could just pay $15 dollars for the shows at Common Grounds. Doors open at 4- show at 5. So I figured i'd pick Cheeto up early so I could go to the bank and then get in line in soon enough to get a wrist band and then leave and come back whenever because Blood Brothers didn't really go on till around 11. Anyway, we got there around 3 or something and got in line only to find out that NO. They weren't selling tickets. So we had sat around being hot and waiting around for nothing. Kaydee got there around 4ish so we just decided to go get some food at Leonardo's and hang out a little bit with her friend Jackie. That was pretty fun other than feeling like I was tagging along the whole time. I love how Kaydee's just like get in the car we're gona go do something together and I love how shes so sweet and great to her freinds. I just can't seem to be myself at all around her or anyone that I think is to cool for me. I sound so rediculous, I know. I hate that i'm a stupid girl right now. You have no idea. I hate how I can't STOP caring what people think of me or watching what I say because it might not be the right thing to say.
I pretty much don't have any friends at school anymore. School consists of a lot of time spent in the library and sleeping in class. I may have about 2 conversations with people a day. Then when I get home I just sit in front of the computer or lay on the couch and sleep some more.
I don't know whats wrong with me anymore. I'm not the person I used to be. I don't think the way I used to. I don't act the way I used to. Theres no gray area anymore. Its pretty much love me or hate me. A lot of people hate me now. I'm begining to care less. Hate me for thinking im better than smoking weed. Hate me for thinking im better than getting drunk every night. Hate me for not going to parties and hooking up with random people. Hate me for thinking that friends should always be there for eachother.
Im so tired of highschool and anything that has to do with it.