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Mad... or sad? You know - I'm not quite sure right now. I have a lot of anger with this person - but I love them to a complete death. I know that they have a lot going on right now, but it always seems I get the shit end of the deal.
Why lie? To my face. Why not just the truth?!
You looked anxious, or uncomfortable around me. Maybe because you were lying, maybe because you really didn't want to talk to me, or maybe because I'm a person from the past... a friend - and you're not "ready" to talk to the people who have given a damn, or who have cared.
Sorry.
So - I saw somebody for the first time in forever. Ever. We made somewhat plans to hang out. You have no idea how excited I was. I broke off my plans with Justin (my boyfriend) because I wanted to hang out with him that bad.... wow, idiot i am.
I knew he was a morning person so I got my sleep-in-until-noon ass up at 8 o'clock... showered, and got ready... completely ready by 9:30. I sat down on the computer and started to read some e-mails, etc. I turned on my phone and it said I had a message.
I listened to this message and... for some reason I really just wanted to cry.
Friends CAN help you. Don't keep doing this - because sooner or later - it'll be too late for that.
I'm different though. I'll always be here for you, I assume anyways. You've done this to me now a few times and I almost expected it.. but yet I didn't. Once, twice... a few more times?!
I'm here for you. Anytime! In hard times... and you need someone to talk to... I'm here for you.
I just wish you didn't lie. And let me down again.
Why lie? To my face. Why not just the truth?!
You looked anxious, or uncomfortable around me. Maybe because you were lying, maybe because you really didn't want to talk to me, or maybe because I'm a person from the past... a friend - and you're not "ready" to talk to the people who have given a damn, or who have cared.
Sorry.
So - I saw somebody for the first time in forever. Ever. We made somewhat plans to hang out. You have no idea how excited I was. I broke off my plans with Justin (my boyfriend) because I wanted to hang out with him that bad.... wow, idiot i am.
I knew he was a morning person so I got my sleep-in-until-noon ass up at 8 o'clock... showered, and got ready... completely ready by 9:30. I sat down on the computer and started to read some e-mails, etc. I turned on my phone and it said I had a message.
I listened to this message and... for some reason I really just wanted to cry.
Friends CAN help you. Don't keep doing this - because sooner or later - it'll be too late for that.
I'm different though. I'll always be here for you, I assume anyways. You've done this to me now a few times and I almost expected it.. but yet I didn't. Once, twice... a few more times?!
I'm here for you. Anytime! In hard times... and you need someone to talk to... I'm here for you.
I just wish you didn't lie. And let me down again.