Sketchy but fine.
I'm upset that I havent been keeping better track of my days. They have been very extreme. Often ruined by my anger and depression and the lack of control over it, but even more often made perfect by...dancing, kite-flying, dictionaries, hands, flesh, blankets, letters, mix CDs, a city, and anything else that makes him up. All of the love that makes him up. All of the love that makes us up.
All of the things that let me know we/this arent/isnt made up.
Yesterday we played this really adorable game with a dictionary. He is some verb, and I...I am a nincompoop. You should have heard him laughing! He held me very close and I pulled him even closer. I feel very safe and warm with him. It's perfect. Today we went to Pittsburgh to visit Linda. We went to a really neat card shop (I spent $13 on cards. Linda spent $23! haha!), for a coffee, and then to a nice little CD store (I finally bought The Thrills). It was such a calm, relaxing day.
School is going fine. My grades are all As, I actually enjoy a few classes, I can stand some of the kids, my drawing in art is coming along, blah blah blah. It's school.
I have received a lot of mail lately. (Thanks Ninna (ecological)! I've been meaning to thank you. I love the mix.) My uncle sent me a really great letter. It gave me the motivation I needed at the time.
I plan to look into and study the things I enjoy. Such as films, photography, writing, and music. I need to get moving if I really want to graduate next year. (I really do!)
I also need to take more pictures. Wow. Yeah. I dont do that anymore.
I've been workin' out pretty often, and I think I've lost some weight. Well, I know I have. I can tell even if no one else can. To celebrate, I bought myself a new pair of jeans this weekend. Yep. I've been eating so many fruits and veggies lately. In the past week, I've destroyed two pineapples by myself. Also, a bag of grapes, about 5 pears, many apples, bananas, a honeydew, a cantaloupe or two, and half of a pomegranate (even though it wasnt ripe). That's right. I am an eating machine. AND, a dancing machine. No, honestly.
I plan to see Emily Beck! tomorrow evening, which is simply fantastic. I also hope to get a huge start on Josh's birthday gift this week. Part of it anyways. Contacts, too. I really want contacts.
And a xylophone, more than several CDs, more than a few outfits, and just everything. I want so much.
I have so much.
This was a very typical update for me. Trying to cover a week or so in one post. It's fine. It's more for me than anyone else.
I hope all is well with everyone.
All of the things that let me know we/this arent/isnt made up.
Yesterday we played this really adorable game with a dictionary. He is some verb, and I...I am a nincompoop. You should have heard him laughing! He held me very close and I pulled him even closer. I feel very safe and warm with him. It's perfect. Today we went to Pittsburgh to visit Linda. We went to a really neat card shop (I spent $13 on cards. Linda spent $23! haha!), for a coffee, and then to a nice little CD store (I finally bought The Thrills). It was such a calm, relaxing day.
School is going fine. My grades are all As, I actually enjoy a few classes, I can stand some of the kids, my drawing in art is coming along, blah blah blah. It's school.
I have received a lot of mail lately. (Thanks Ninna (ecological)! I've been meaning to thank you. I love the mix.) My uncle sent me a really great letter. It gave me the motivation I needed at the time.
I plan to look into and study the things I enjoy. Such as films, photography, writing, and music. I need to get moving if I really want to graduate next year. (I really do!)
I also need to take more pictures. Wow. Yeah. I dont do that anymore.
I've been workin' out pretty often, and I think I've lost some weight. Well, I know I have. I can tell even if no one else can. To celebrate, I bought myself a new pair of jeans this weekend. Yep. I've been eating so many fruits and veggies lately. In the past week, I've destroyed two pineapples by myself. Also, a bag of grapes, about 5 pears, many apples, bananas, a honeydew, a cantaloupe or two, and half of a pomegranate (even though it wasnt ripe). That's right. I am an eating machine. AND, a dancing machine. No, honestly.
I plan to see Emily Beck! tomorrow evening, which is simply fantastic. I also hope to get a huge start on Josh's birthday gift this week. Part of it anyways. Contacts, too. I really want contacts.
And a xylophone, more than several CDs, more than a few outfits, and just everything. I want so much.
I have so much.
This was a very typical update for me. Trying to cover a week or so in one post. It's fine. It's more for me than anyone else.
I hope all is well with everyone.