What could have been lost
You close your eyes and I just watch you slip away.
This week has been a mix of feelings for me.
Tonight I played soccer and my team won. I thought I played really good because sometimes I don't have the speed no matter how hard I try and I'm not big on running but sometimes thinking of footie players help me get through it. I think Michael Carrick and Steven Gerrard some how channeled me through two laps in warm up.
I had a day where I wished I did not exist. There has only been three times when I have physically taken my name tag off while working. There has been one time when I have hidden in the cooler to get away from the world, the people. them, my past.
I don't like that feeling. I didn't like it then. It was like staring at everything in slow motion. Not an out of body experience but I did not feel like I was there.
Two of my boys have quit at the store. I'm slowly looking forward to the day when I give my two weeks notice. Hopefully not in November but I'll take what I can get.
This week has been a mix of feelings for me.
Tonight I played soccer and my team won. I thought I played really good because sometimes I don't have the speed no matter how hard I try and I'm not big on running but sometimes thinking of footie players help me get through it. I think Michael Carrick and Steven Gerrard some how channeled me through two laps in warm up.
I had a day where I wished I did not exist. There has only been three times when I have physically taken my name tag off while working. There has been one time when I have hidden in the cooler to get away from the world, the people. them, my past.
I don't like that feeling. I didn't like it then. It was like staring at everything in slow motion. Not an out of body experience but I did not feel like I was there.
Two of my boys have quit at the store. I'm slowly looking forward to the day when I give my two weeks notice. Hopefully not in November but I'll take what I can get.