better late then never?
so begin the depression. ok so as iver been told im a senior and 06 and all that shit but you no what really sucks more then butt fuckin pirates 3? realizing that you are losing a lot of really good friends, very soon, and thers nothing you can do about it.
although i really should have seen this comin and i did, for some reason it has just hit me and it got me right across the face, hard. i no that its just succession that if i am a senior this upcoming year that means that the people ive been around that were seniors will be leaving but damn. i have to admit something that is very difficult for me and that is that i truley enjoy Drama(the class and all that comes with it from school). i had been resisting it all through my time in high school until about halfway through this year. i started hangin with people like wolfgang and then doin actual this with the class both in and out of schooland i became close to a lot of people, many of which were seniors. so now after hearin people tlk last night im hit with a bit of regrwet. cause i didnt do anything before these past fe months and now its too late. i wanna hang out with all these people and just have fun but they are goin off to xcollege. and this isnt just the drama peoploe also others that i just got close with this year that were seniors.
so now im left with a kind of emptiness knowin that very soon they will all be gone. sure they will come back which ive seen but i no it wont be the same. plus some are goin real far and i know it will be difficult for them to visit. in fact some of those people have already left. grrrrrrrr. im just gonna miss all these people.
...and so what now? i fin myself at thje final stage of my "childhood". legally you are an adult when you turn 18. menatlly you feel like an adult at different times but everyone thinks they are an "adult" when they go off to college. for me this will happen simoltaniouly(sp?). im turnin 17 this july which means that the summer between my senior year and my 1st year of college i will be hit with being an adult all at once. so i want to make this year the best year of my life, at least up to this point. my only fear is that i wont be able to do all that i want. im at the top of my childhood and will never be here gain so i need to make everything comin up count. i cant be afraid of anything. if i think i wanna do something, this is my last chance. if i cant do it then it wasnt meant. just like me losin Mr. OH. fuckin pissed me off but what the hell can i do? at least i tried. i honestly dont think that i would have made a very good mr. oh but i got peer pressured into tryin so i did. i guess i was right, i lost. o well.
this year will be good. ive got great freinds to help me and im just gonna wing it. im gonna go for it all. get the grades. get the girls. get excited, this is it. good grief this year is gonna be amazing.
:::RANDOM MOCHAN MEMORY:::
today hils was talkin to rachael and we discussed the punishment room. her mom would lock her or melanie in there when they were bad and they would go ballistic. it was kinda funny to witness, but lookin back its amzing to have them realize that there was a back door out of the room and they didnt know it despite the room begin 3 feet by 5 feet, with a toilet. haha fun time
although i really should have seen this comin and i did, for some reason it has just hit me and it got me right across the face, hard. i no that its just succession that if i am a senior this upcoming year that means that the people ive been around that were seniors will be leaving but damn. i have to admit something that is very difficult for me and that is that i truley enjoy Drama(the class and all that comes with it from school). i had been resisting it all through my time in high school until about halfway through this year. i started hangin with people like wolfgang and then doin actual this with the class both in and out of schooland i became close to a lot of people, many of which were seniors. so now after hearin people tlk last night im hit with a bit of regrwet. cause i didnt do anything before these past fe months and now its too late. i wanna hang out with all these people and just have fun but they are goin off to xcollege. and this isnt just the drama peoploe also others that i just got close with this year that were seniors.
so now im left with a kind of emptiness knowin that very soon they will all be gone. sure they will come back which ive seen but i no it wont be the same. plus some are goin real far and i know it will be difficult for them to visit. in fact some of those people have already left. grrrrrrrr. im just gonna miss all these people.
...and so what now? i fin myself at thje final stage of my "childhood". legally you are an adult when you turn 18. menatlly you feel like an adult at different times but everyone thinks they are an "adult" when they go off to college. for me this will happen simoltaniouly(sp?). im turnin 17 this july which means that the summer between my senior year and my 1st year of college i will be hit with being an adult all at once. so i want to make this year the best year of my life, at least up to this point. my only fear is that i wont be able to do all that i want. im at the top of my childhood and will never be here gain so i need to make everything comin up count. i cant be afraid of anything. if i think i wanna do something, this is my last chance. if i cant do it then it wasnt meant. just like me losin Mr. OH. fuckin pissed me off but what the hell can i do? at least i tried. i honestly dont think that i would have made a very good mr. oh but i got peer pressured into tryin so i did. i guess i was right, i lost. o well.
this year will be good. ive got great freinds to help me and im just gonna wing it. im gonna go for it all. get the grades. get the girls. get excited, this is it. good grief this year is gonna be amazing.
:::RANDOM MOCHAN MEMORY:::
today hils was talkin to rachael and we discussed the punishment room. her mom would lock her or melanie in there when they were bad and they would go ballistic. it was kinda funny to witness, but lookin back its amzing to have them realize that there was a back door out of the room and they didnt know it despite the room begin 3 feet by 5 feet, with a toilet. haha fun time