My Passion.....Destroyed?

[tovle88]

Today, they announced who was going to run for Students First! I applied to run for Commissioner of Diversity. I didn't get it. I was quiet. Someone got it. I was and am upset, bitter, and hurt. Something that I was committed to, something I was passionate about, something that I have and will dedicate all of my time to. I didn't get it. I'm upset. I'm hurt. I focused so much of my time in the diversity office to learn that I won't run. The communities didn't believe I was the right person to run. I cried. I'm starting to cry right now as I write this. My livelihood is taken away from me. It hurts. This process hurts, I hate this process. I am bitter. I sacrificed opportunities for me for this. I am not going to contest the decision. I want closure. I focused my life around this office, and since I'm not running. What am I going to do? I need to reprioritize my life. Ugh! Ouch, it hurts. Damn these tears. Tears from a person who gave it their all. I wanted it so bad, because I believed in it, I was passionate about working as the Commissioner of Diversity. Feels like a rug has been pulled under me, feels my prioritizing around the diversity office was for nothing. This door is closed. I am going to keep it closed. I won't be working with the Diversity office anymore. Not going to run to be a college rep too. No. I will get over it, someday, hopefully. But right now, all I can do is cry. Ugh.

My emotions, fueled by hurt, and anger is justified.

Damn I hate this.

No longer loving right now,