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So I keep TRYING to be okay about everything in my life right now and TRYING to not bother Bob/obsess WAY too much about him
but EVERY FUCKING NIGHT I have these dreams. Yesterday a friend told me that at dinner he was with this girl I kind of know and she was "parading around" in his jacket and hanging off of him in a "sophmoreish way" and that he had pulled out her chair for her at dinner. Since I know this girl and since last I checked she liked Wah I went to go hang out with her and she seemed to still like Wah. However, apparently she's going to NY with another girl to stay with Bob and Wah on New Year's.
Either way, I felt better finally and talked to Dominic for a long time last night but then I couldn't get to sleep at all. I mean, maybe I got 3 hours KIND OF because whenever I was asleep I shot back into these dreams where I was in Hemingway Lobby and the previously-mentioned girl came downstairs in Bob's coat and he came down after her, neither of them noticed me and they were standing there kissing. I physically attacked Bob and hit her for lying to me and then the hall counselor started playing that song from Ocean's 12 (a little beside the point).
But still. Every day that I have heard/seen something about him that I didn't like or involved another girl or that I was still confused about, I've had a dream where that exact thing happens. This didn't even fucking happen to me with Sam. I NEVER have dreams involving "real life situations" so why the hell is this happening now??
I'm amazingly tired but awake at the same time. There's a Red Wheelbarrow Reading tonight and Wah and Chase edited it so that girl and Bob will most likely be there. I'm sure I'll figure something out by how they act but still...fucking hell, I don't want to find out he IS dating someone right before I go up to read.
but EVERY FUCKING NIGHT I have these dreams. Yesterday a friend told me that at dinner he was with this girl I kind of know and she was "parading around" in his jacket and hanging off of him in a "sophmoreish way" and that he had pulled out her chair for her at dinner. Since I know this girl and since last I checked she liked Wah I went to go hang out with her and she seemed to still like Wah. However, apparently she's going to NY with another girl to stay with Bob and Wah on New Year's.
Either way, I felt better finally and talked to Dominic for a long time last night but then I couldn't get to sleep at all. I mean, maybe I got 3 hours KIND OF because whenever I was asleep I shot back into these dreams where I was in Hemingway Lobby and the previously-mentioned girl came downstairs in Bob's coat and he came down after her, neither of them noticed me and they were standing there kissing. I physically attacked Bob and hit her for lying to me and then the hall counselor started playing that song from Ocean's 12 (a little beside the point).
But still. Every day that I have heard/seen something about him that I didn't like or involved another girl or that I was still confused about, I've had a dream where that exact thing happens. This didn't even fucking happen to me with Sam. I NEVER have dreams involving "real life situations" so why the hell is this happening now??
I'm amazingly tired but awake at the same time. There's a Red Wheelbarrow Reading tonight and Wah and Chase edited it so that girl and Bob will most likely be there. I'm sure I'll figure something out by how they act but still...fucking hell, I don't want to find out he IS dating someone right before I go up to read.