A Beautiful Life

[tousled_hair]

Now a' days it seems that everything is falling apart at the seams.
Secrecy, insecurity, mistrust, depression, and illness are looming overhead raining down on all of us...

"You seem to make the same mistakes everyday
Sometimes its hard to open your eyes..."

I'm better at helping other people with their problems than tackling my own. Old news.
There's trouble a' brewing

"You want to be the only cake on the table..."

I don't know why I can't ever sleep, I think it's another 'put your mind to it' things... I've never been good at that.

"You want to find a pretty place you can stay
You just don't want to live and then leave..."

There is nothing so overwhelming as feeling the lack of control.
No control over your mind, your life, your existence.
New kind of drowning, same kind of suffocation.

"I just want to be where the sun shines down...

i hate everything.

"I really hate how you push me away,
I do not like it when you shut me out.
I say I love you but I really don't know you.
I want to change you but I don't know how.
I want to leave when it gets ugly and cold
I want to leave but I have no where to go.

I just want to be where the sun shines down...

You seem to make the same mistakes all the time.
Sometimes it's not so hard to understand why
You say you hate the things you have done.
You have been running with your back to the sun .
You want to find a place you don't have to hide
You say you're happy just to be alive.

I just want to be where the sun shines down
On a beautiful life.
I just want to find a beautiful life
I want to be where the sun shines down
I don't care where we go
I don't care what we do
As long as I can be with you
I just want to be with you."
Everclear - A Beautiful Life