Disappointed doesnt come close to how I feel...
Today was one of the worst days during the summer....and it seems like that whole situation is never goin to get any better...but it did show and give me some sence of closure in some things...it made me realize that one person isnt going to change no matter what happens and that I have to move on with my life and not feel so bitter...which is goin to take me a LONG ASS TIME from months to maybe even yrs!
I'm frankly am sick and tired of dealing with guys!! I'm sick of their games (this isnt for every guy incase ur questionin) and everything about them!! So dating is what i'll stick to...b/c none of them really want a girl friend...except for a select few, and those guys I cant get worth anything in my life!! Plus dating I dont have to deal with mindless butllshit!!!!! The guys that play these games know who they are!!!
So the msg i've gotten out of today was things still havent changed and its time to move on and grow from the experiances you've had to go through... The second msg i've gotten was dont waste your time anymore on someone who doesnt seem to show that much interest in you and they act as if they do!! Even though I should have found that out a long time ago which I did but I def plan on doing something about it b/c I cant handle it emotionaly anymore!!GUYS SUCK!!!PERIOD!!!
So today sucked and hopefully things will get better but i'll just have to sit and wait...but thank god school starts the 13th which will keep me busy and my mind on somethin besides things that I shouldnt wry about!!
Amanda
"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger"