May 16, 2005 14:31
You realize that you have no feelings for that person but you dont want to go back to where you were before then....
the person says "no one can find out about this" and you realize that thats not the first time youve heard that line....
Then your doing the thing that killed the paternal side of your family but you just dont care and you really hope that it kills you faster....
Then your standing on the side of a bridge trying to coax someone off when all that you can think about is....
Jumping into the cold hard waves and going for one last swim before the story of your end is displayed on the front page of a newspaper that you didnt have to deliver....
And you think about the words that people say to you as your about to do something drastic and wonder if people really mean it since they only say it in times of need...
so you think that even if someone said those words to you you would just jump anyways because their words dont mean a thing any other day...
So show people that you love them and not just tell them. it gets you further in the longrun...
THen you think back to the phonecall you got earlier and someone told you "Fuck you Bitch" and all you really want to know is what you did to the world to make everyone hate you...
And whats worse is no one will tell you theyre true feelings so you live your life felling lifes a lie.....
So on that last day you stand tall, scream and take your life...
Then you just say fuck everyone you just dont care and move on with your life because you dont feel like you should care about people that just dont care about you back....
A lines a dime a million times and I'm about to see all of them...