I am my own worst enemy
I've been thinking alot more than usual lately and nothing good has come from it. I dont know what I want from people anymore, I dont know what I want to do with myself and I dont know who I am anymore. Every now and then I notice that I'm starting to slip back into my old self. The old bitchy self who hated everybody and didnt want to love and be loved it return, and I hated who I used to be. The girl who wonders what she's living for and what good she brings to people. I guess the one word to sum that all up is.. depressed. I feel like I'm in a bubble, looking out on the outside but just sitting inside watching everthing happen, not trying to do anything about it, wasting my life away. I tryed to be the person that everybody loved, and everybody wanted to befriend. I tryed to be a nice girl who cares about everybody. I can't be her anymore. I am my own worst enemy.
In other news- Ozzfest is July 17th!! Im excited. Im coming down either the 15th or the 16th and Im staying at my grandmas in washington. when I get there, the first thing Im going to do is call Lauren and tell her Im on my way then Im going to walk to Jamie's house.. chill with him for a little bit then go to Lauren's! Then I dont know.. well only if Lauren's home, if not then I go inside and eat all of her food =) Then we go to Ozzfest and I get to see Madeleine, Chelsea and hopefully Effie!!! My sister Shannon is taking us, this should be good. Im kinda pissed because Manson's not going to be there, so when I dont like the band thats playing(not too many I dont like haha) Im just going to go tanning haha