numbness...
I'm still pushing all of my problems away. The other day I got ahold of a razor, like I used to, and cut my thigh all up. I, myself, thinks it looks pretty... specially when the blood is running. I like to lick it... no matter how odd that may sound to you. The blood puts me in a trance though... and I like being in a trance. Noone is there, and I'm no where. My emotions now just feel numb. I guess I'm a little hurt, thinking that both guys I care so much about may not care as much for me... I'm a little confused about future plans... but all in all... I'm numb on my emotions.
Today I started working on a website on angelfire. Zack, my cousin, wants me to make one... so I am. I haven't really started on it, so it will be a while before I let other people see it.
I think I will go do my biology and maybe work on something. I have so much I should do, but I can't bring myself to do any of it. I'm so fustrated with school because I don't know how my grades will eb in biology and I need all A's if I want to try and get that scholarship for LSMSA...
On that note... I hate school... and need to think on things... or maybe STOP thinking on things.
Today I started working on a website on angelfire. Zack, my cousin, wants me to make one... so I am. I haven't really started on it, so it will be a while before I let other people see it.
I think I will go do my biology and maybe work on something. I have so much I should do, but I can't bring myself to do any of it. I'm so fustrated with school because I don't know how my grades will eb in biology and I need all A's if I want to try and get that scholarship for LSMSA...
On that note... I hate school... and need to think on things... or maybe STOP thinking on things.