Why do fools fall in love
My day started out slow and fustrating. Later on in the day after I could not reach anyone's cell phone, I got online. I got to talk to Todd which was a good thing. I enjoy talking with him. After a bit, I went and took a shower. This means I washed out my green hair. While I was taking a shower, Jonathan called. I answered and he told me how he would like me to go to town with him. So, I went to town with him. We first went to the mall. Jonathan tried to figure out Vitoria's sercret, and he went to Sam Goody's and bought UnderWorld ( which is an awesome movie, and I love it, and it makes me know there is something exciting out there.) After the mall, we went to Jonathan's orthadontist appointment, Alltel, and then Books-a-million. At Books-A-Million I was looking at the mangas when four people walked in. To my surprise one was Todd. A few minutes later ( after Todd still has not recognized me) Jonathan comes up to me and says how cool these four people are. At that comment I yelled Todd's name and introduced everyone.... that I knew. What I should have done when the beautiful girl by Todd and the other two guys asked who I was, was say "I'm no one." and walk off. Well... Jonathan made me go tell Todd how he is the guy he has been chatting with online... and it just didn't feel too happy up in Books-a-Million. Todd left without saying goodbye or anything. I don't blame him.. I wouldn't tell myself goodbye. Jonathan and I finally left and ate at Wendy's and then went home. We watched UnderWorld at his house. Then I told him he needed to bring me home because my mum would never give me an answer on if I could stay the night or not. He didn't want to bring me home.... but he did finally. Now I'm here... a little lonely... a little bored... a little sad. I don't know what to do in life. I don't know if I'm really special to Jonathan, and if he truely wants to be with me always, or just wants me for other reasons. I'm lost it feels like. Every time I come close to finding myself I end up messing up. It all is just stupid to me now. I need to pray. Every time I pray to God and get closer to Him, I always end up messing up again and doing the same sin that I always beg forgiveness for. Well.. I guess I should go. I'll be online watching the screen most likely.