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Dear Mom,
How in the hell is it fair to everyone else? You would not beleive what this family is going through because you wont open your eyes and look around you. John is miserable and doing drugs. I hide in my room all day or work extra hours so I don't have to go home. I fucking tried to kill myself last year. Open your eyes! The dogs are constantly afraid and Ozzie is worse than ever with complaints and Dad is always mad. Keith is always playing you. I love him and I know he's sick. But he's using it to get his way. I tried to talk about it tonight, and I should be supportive with Keith? No. I can't. He will do everything he can to make everyone as miserable as it is and its working. We used to be a family, but we aren't anymore. A mockery of one on good days. Yeah, he's out in California getting help. But he took off and all you cared about was his ass. Eeryone else was afraid of him using. I know hes your son and everything, but if you want him to get better, you can't keep doing what you are. When he's back, he will be using and hurting us. I know you don't believe me but I don't lie about this. When Keith is home, me and John are always afraid he'll come back. But we are happy. We can leave stuff out.
I know you don't believe me, but please try.
I don't know how much longer I can do this. We lost our familyness when Nana died and never got back.
Love,
Your daughter who needs you so much.
How in the hell is it fair to everyone else? You would not beleive what this family is going through because you wont open your eyes and look around you. John is miserable and doing drugs. I hide in my room all day or work extra hours so I don't have to go home. I fucking tried to kill myself last year. Open your eyes! The dogs are constantly afraid and Ozzie is worse than ever with complaints and Dad is always mad. Keith is always playing you. I love him and I know he's sick. But he's using it to get his way. I tried to talk about it tonight, and I should be supportive with Keith? No. I can't. He will do everything he can to make everyone as miserable as it is and its working. We used to be a family, but we aren't anymore. A mockery of one on good days. Yeah, he's out in California getting help. But he took off and all you cared about was his ass. Eeryone else was afraid of him using. I know hes your son and everything, but if you want him to get better, you can't keep doing what you are. When he's back, he will be using and hurting us. I know you don't believe me but I don't lie about this. When Keith is home, me and John are always afraid he'll come back. But we are happy. We can leave stuff out.
I know you don't believe me, but please try.
I don't know how much longer I can do this. We lost our familyness when Nana died and never got back.
Love,
Your daughter who needs you so much.