pouring my heart out
ok now that i've seen how that looks i guess i can pour my heart out more...I am so mad at my stepmom! She apparently thinks I GET AROUND. If you know what I mean.. And what she said tonight hurt me bad. you know those jelly bracelets, the stretchy ones? well apparently girls use them for sex. and guess what? i have some. each color means a different level of how far you would go with a guy. and if a guy snaps one off your wrist it apparently means you're supposed to go do how far you would go with him. well guess what? i had absolutely no clue of this otherwise DUH i wouldn't have bought them. i thought they were cute, and to make it even better they were GLOW IN THE DARK which i find cool.. how did i know that they were supposedly used for that? i didnt and i find it really rude and absurd that she would assume that i bought them to use it for that. ooh and the clincher is, that this made it even more 'OBVIOUS' that i use them for that.. i had a WHOLE arm of them. ooh yes, that's EXACTLY what i plan to do with them. SHE CAUGHT ME! i mean come on.. i'm 14. i don't go to public school, my friend does and she didn't even know that. and guess what? on the label when i bought them it didn't say:
USED FOR SEX, THIS COLOR MEANS THAT YOU WOULD GO THIS FAR. and it made me really mad as im sure you can tell. i felt like screaming at her. i doubt the manufacturers of these bracelets thought of them for this, either. uugh im soo mad!! and then my dad could tell something was making me mad on the way home, and he asked me about it and he goes 'what's the problem?' and i go 'nothing' and he goes 'well if you don't tell me we can't solve it' and i go 'i've told you lots of problems i have and so far none of them that could have been solved are solved so what's the point of telling you this one?' and that shut him up. I mean, yes I felt bad afterwards but if you knew my dad then you'd know how irresponsible he is. He totally needed to have that slap in the face. Maybe it'll wake him up.
USED FOR SEX, THIS COLOR MEANS THAT YOU WOULD GO THIS FAR. and it made me really mad as im sure you can tell. i felt like screaming at her. i doubt the manufacturers of these bracelets thought of them for this, either. uugh im soo mad!! and then my dad could tell something was making me mad on the way home, and he asked me about it and he goes 'what's the problem?' and i go 'nothing' and he goes 'well if you don't tell me we can't solve it' and i go 'i've told you lots of problems i have and so far none of them that could have been solved are solved so what's the point of telling you this one?' and that shut him up. I mean, yes I felt bad afterwards but if you knew my dad then you'd know how irresponsible he is. He totally needed to have that slap in the face. Maybe it'll wake him up.