Long time no update... btw if your looking for a happy/calm post from me, you wont find it here.

[toughgirl591]

My family is fucked up, just a little. Most the chick i used to call my sister. I'm sick of her. I consider Izzy, Becca, Adrienne, And Holly more like sisters then I consider her. Now some of you may think I was rude and a total bitch or whatever, but this is how I truly feel. It need to be said to her and I'm through with her! Heres our final conversation ever (3-24-06): Tay11591 [10:45 P.M.]: to inform u u make me sick and i hate u with all my heart u are dead to me and im happy about it Rileylt [10:46 P.M.]: Well I am sorry you feel that way but I still and always will love you Tay11591 [10:46 P.M.]: bull shit candice thats fucking bullshit Rileylt [10:46 P.M.]: That is your opinion, but I that is the way I feel Rileylt [10:47 P.M.]: If you ever need me you can call me Tay11591 [10:47 P.M.]: u cant love me u dont love my father and im his daughter and forever i will b Tay11591 [10:47 P.M.]: u were never there 4 me Tay11591 [10:47 P.M.]: and u will never be Tay11591 [10:47 P.M.]: 3 girls i meet last year are more like sisters 2 me then u are Rileylt [10:48 P.M.]: Well I am sorry you feel that way just because I am in another state does not mean I cannot be there for you Tay11591 [10:48 P.M.]: bullshit dont try to fucking act like ur the worlds greatest sister Tay11591 [10:48 P.M.]: u have never been Tay11591 [10:49 P.M.]: and to tell my mother u are a better mother then she is Rileylt [10:49 P.M.]: I have never claimed to be the world's greatest sister but I am your my sister Tay11591 [10:49 P.M.]: technally half sister Rileylt [10:50 P.M.]: Well taylor, I hope you grow up to have a beautiful, happy, healthy life and I will be here if you ever need me. Tay11591 [10:50 P.M.]: and after the way u hav treated my mother and father the man u fucking adopted u and treated u like his own Tay11591 [10:50 P.M.]: he was there 4 me Tay11591 [10:50 P.M.]: and u Tay11591 [10:50 P.M.]: and brian Tay11591 [10:51 P.M.]: i dont need u now nor will i ever need u Tay11591 [10:51 P.M.]: u were supposted to be my role model but u fucked that up Tay11591 [10:52 P.M.]: i never wanna b anything like u Rileylt [10:52 P.M.]: Taylor, I am not going to go into any of that with you and that is fine if you don't think you need me but I love you very much and I will be here if you ever change your mind Tay11591 [10:52 P.M.]: trust me i wont Rileylt [10:52 P.M.]: I wish you the best of luck. Rileylt [10:52 P.M.]: All my love to you. Tay11591 [10:52 P.M.]: i dont want ur fucking love Tay11591 [10:53 P.M.]: or anything from u now or ever even if i end up in a horrible situationa and someone i know who i wont ask for help from u or the assholes u call ur family around the corner Tay11591 [10:53 P.M.]: they are ur mommy and daddy now Tay11591 [10:54 P.M.]: missy and mary and bobby are u sisters and brother Rileylt [10:55 P.M.]: I am happy that they are my family Rileylt [10:55 P.M.]: But you are still my sister Tay11591 [10:55 P.M.]: u will never b able to be a better mother then my mother she has supported us in everything and loved u dispite the shit u did Tay11591 [10:55 P.M.]: and thats how u repay her Tay11591 [10:55 P.M.]: and my father Tay11591 [10:55 P.M.]: and me Tay11591 [10:55 P.M.]: IM NOT UR FUCKING SiSTER! Rileylt [10:56 P.M.]: Well, I am sorry to hear that I am not your sister to you but you will still be mine Tay11591 [10:57 P.M.]: believe what u want but theres not way in hell i related to u Rileylt [10:58 P.M.]: Well, maybe you will feel differently in the future, I wish you wouldn't talk so awful Tay11591 [10:58 P.M.]: well do u think u hav respected our parents yes our any better Tay11591 [10:58 P.M.]: and i know i wont Tay11591 [10:58 P.M.]: feel different Tay11591 [10:59 P.M.]: u treated me and still treat me like shit Rileylt [11:00 P.M.]: I am sorry you feel that way and I know that I am a good person, I have tried to be a good sister to you and for damn sure I am an awesome mother so I am no longer going to take this from you, but I will be here if you need me in the future. I hope you can work through all your anger and hostility, I love you and Mom very much. Holly: I <3 like a true sister, I still remember meeting you. You somehow always manage to make me smile. All thats happened with my family and things in yours, I know that I can turn to you If I want to talk. Know the same goes for you with me. I will always be here if you need me. Thanks for being there. (btw you still owe me a day) Adrienne: At times we fight like crazy and you get on my nerves, but no matter what I always still <3 u. I guess thats what makes you so much like a sister to me. You have awesome advice and you know when at time someone just needs to vent. Things have happened, you've been there to help me or just listen. I've been a bitch and you've stil stuck around. I'm glad that I meet you in GBE. Thanks for being there for me and helping with my problems. Izzy: I'm glad that I meet you last year. I <3 you. There are times when you can make someone smile when they need it. You are crazy, but we all are hun. I <3 you for your crazyness and uniqueness! You can be serious when someone needs you to be. You,also, have good advice sometimes. You're creative and always have awesome ideas. Thanks for being there. Becca: I'm glad I meet you last year. You are insane, as the rest are, but its a good thing. You can make me laugh and random crazy things. LEROY JENKINS(sp)!!!!! You are awesome at saying random things that make someone laugh. Thanks and I <3 u! Thank yous guys some much, I'm not sure what I would do with out you all. You have impacted my life so much. <3333333! I'm gonna go take my anger and frustating out in working with my dad. <3 Tay