According to anyone's standards, including mine, I was sent reeling earlier from a "break up" (on my part) that ended something so vague and suggestive that it might not have been there to end. However terrible the sinking feeling of finding out this, and coming to realize that may have been, the resolution came in several simple remedies, those being terrible rap downloads, showers and dancing, talking to a friend who knows how to talk to a lesbian in hysterics, and finding out that maybe just maybe being "without" isn't always not having.