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HI, I AM IN A RP RUT AGAIN. I probably need to hiatus in a bit, but before that love~ love~ kyaaa~!! So, finding out why I love my characters and more specifically why I love playing them goes here.
Fujisaki
I AM PROUD TO SAY THAT NO CHARACTER IN CANON OR PERSON IN FANDOM OR PERHAPS EVEN THIS GAME LOVES THIS CHARACTER AS HE APPEARS IN GRAVITATION, AND I LOVE HIM ANYWAY. He truly is my favorite character in the series for all of his odd man out vibes. Considering how much I love Gravitation, this makes a lot of sense. ANYWAY!! Fujisaki is a Mean Girl! A whiny, panicky little bitch that makes life hell for everyone and is in no way cool at all! He's a clone of a guy that inspires fear in everyone yet no one really even bats an eye as he tries to top them. He's a tool, he fails, and I LOVE IT. ♥ Even when he turns over a teeny tiny new leaf at the end of Gravitation, he is still a priss and entirely bitchbitchbitch about it. I will not lie that I apped him with the sole purpose of chewing out as many people as I could, because that is what Fujisaki does. He chews people out, calculates, and is better than you.
But he has a flip-side in play! While he has a strong personality, Fujisaki is nearly blank slate for how much he actually appears in canon and with how many times Murakami jerks his characterization around. As much as I may personally fight and ignore Murakami, I have a lot of room to play and personalize. He has a huge head canon in my mind that I can comfortably know will never be joss'd and he's half mine at this point. I was scared of that for awhile, because oh god I was used to playing the main characters-- THE LEADS who have everything about them spelled out, and what was I doing with someone as vague as this. But as I have given Murakami the finger so I have done the same with that fear, and I regret it not. T-The fact that everyone seems to give me a thumbs up in this endeavour helps. askdhaslk Thanks, guys! So, I love having this huge amount of flexibility with my playing of him. He gives me fodder for thought and essays and more which is just beautiful, because I love getting to tinker over things like that. I love getting to watch him evolve and keep turning over new leaves as he becomes more and more my character. Even though, he keeps fighting with me at the moment, I still love him so darn much.
whew, i'm going to get tired by the end of this
Joshua
Shoot, I can't remember. I. . . like. . . to play assholes? Honestly, he hit my pings many years ago with the beach scene that I dimly remembered and decided on that to app him. Then, I read the rest of the canon, lolol five and eight, and fell hard. He has a lot of depth in canon that you wouldn't expect, but he's still a huge mystery. Not one scene features him acting like he does in another. It's bloody confusing and really, really awesome. Like most everyone, I really do love him just for being a really sexy, well-spoken, psychotic rapist. I just wanted to play one and I liked him more than all the others that I pondered, like Hiead.
My love for Joshua comes out more in play though. He's really difficult to control in any way or even understand, so he's sort of a private gem of mine. It isn't even growing in camp, because he really hasn't done much of that at all. It's just getting to see him operate and move in a larger presence then he gets in canon. I honestly just have to sit down and play entirely intuitively without pondering would he do this or that based on canon. (Note: This actually gets kind of scary sometimes. Help, help! I can channel murderous intent!) Joshua is just a really dynamic and unusual character like that. It's really quite amazing, and it functions for me. I honestly keep meaning to sit down and explain how he operates so everyone else can see how he works that makes me love him so much beyond causing havoc and throwing barbs at everyone else. But I think in the process of writing this, no one really needs to know that and have the mystery explained. It made me love him more, because I get to actively uncover all of these things that not even Joshua thinks on. It really is fun to just let the surprises unravel as people discover things about him along the way, like how he doesn't hate so-and-so and things like that.
It's really hard to explain, but Joshua is sort of a comforting presence to fall back on for me. He just comes naturally as scary as that is, and I know he'll never bore me. I play him as little or as much as I want to, and he's golden. So, while yay yay I'm playing a rapist \o/, there's really so much more to it to the point where the fact that I really don't even think of him as a rapist first and more like. . . It's his other side that doesn't have a name, but it's there. Anyway, it's that other side that makes me love Joshua a lot and it's all~ mine~.
Kizna
I GET TO VIOLENCE PEOPLE OUT OF EMBARRASSMENT WHAT'S NOT TO LOVE? Are you guys getting this trend? Aaah, I'm a horrible person, whatever.
Honestly, Kizna is. . . It's embarrassing that I overlooked her for over a year when I kept shaking Megami Kouhosei to give me a character to app. If you give her two seconds, she will completely endear you to her and kick you in the teeth with her strength and awesome. She doesn't sit down and play the default female role. She pushes through, and she's damn near unstoppable. Even with all of that, she is more than just the kickass female lead. Kizna is really dumb and ignorant. She can be insensitive! She can also be really tender and effeminate. What are you really going to do with a character that is mentioned to have a very masculine speech in omake yet cries when her partner rips her hat off her head after slapping him? The canon is short and she doesn't get enough time, but Kizna really is this sort of limitless character.
And all of that? I discovered through play. I get to see even more of her weak sides and her ideologies. She's elusive at times, because she really will meld herself to her situation rather than gunning through it like you would expect. She is amazing to play in camp with her flexibility. Kizna will be sincere and caring towards others, but kick you when you are just wallowing in grief like a baby. She will admit that she's scared or embarrassed, and speaks up her mind. SHE ANSWERS MY RELATIONSHIP MEMES FOR ME IN THREAD, WTF. I really don't think I could tire of Kizna, because she really is never the same thing twice. I set her apart from canon a lot, because as much as I adore MK, it won't ever be re-created at all in camp. So, I get that room to play that I love with her in a really new way, and it's just fun to play. Honestly, her interactions with other characters makes me so happy. I unabashedly thread-whore her with her group (YOU GUYS KNOW WHO YOU ARE), because I love every single thread she has with them. Yeah, I just really love every thing about her character and playing her right down to her icons. My only regret is not getting any more canon, sooob.
no srsly i'm tired now
Miyako
She still has the new character smell, uwah. Can you guess? CAN YOU GUESS WHY I LOVE HER? YES, SHE TELLS OFF MIDDLE SCHOOLERS AND ADULTS AS AN ELEMENTARY STUDENT. She throws a bucket at Makoto who everyone else is frightened of, because she is not putting up with your damn shenanigans. Miyako looks and acts like that Samara-esque character, that mysterious loli, but when she speaks she has the potential of just flipping that on you. For as delicate as she appears, she still has a great inner strength. Even then, as mature and strong as she is, she's still a little girl. Ghost Hound is about crazy adventures of three kids out of their bodies, yes. But it's also about just family issues, about the basic needs everyone has-- To be loved and accepted by their family. Also, Miyako is so darn pretty. I can't even really fathom how many jaws will drop around when she's older, but she will break so many hearts. It amuses me to no end.
Miyako took a different kind of tempering for me. Where I had to get into the groove of pissing people off with Fujisaki and Joshua then being overbearing with Kizna, Miyako doesn't respond. She doesn't like to talk and has no inclination to speak with anyone at all. She has a huge wall around her that she keeps up. As difficult as she is, I still love playing this angle. She's still a child and small acts of kindness will chip her shields till she ends up clinging to someone in her own way. I love when this happens. Miyako is more dynamic than she'd appear, and even if I end up having a small party when she speaks more than one sentence. I love putting the work and effort in to get that party. Of course, I get a lot to ponder over with her. She has a lot churning under the surface so it's always fun to peek over and see what's happening there. Honestly, I have a bit more of the way to go to be completely heads over heels in love with her from playing her, not that I'm more than halfway there. But I think a lot of the love for Miyako is just a new challenge and the amazing potential she has. I know she's frustrating to play against, but I enjoy every moment of it. I really hope others are too.
AND I KNOW I'M MISSING LOTS OF STUFF. BUT HONESTLY. I LOVE MY CURRENT CREW LOTS.
Fujisaki
I AM PROUD TO SAY THAT NO CHARACTER IN CANON OR PERSON IN FANDOM OR PERHAPS EVEN THIS GAME LOVES THIS CHARACTER AS HE APPEARS IN GRAVITATION, AND I LOVE HIM ANYWAY. He truly is my favorite character in the series for all of his odd man out vibes. Considering how much I love Gravitation, this makes a lot of sense. ANYWAY!! Fujisaki is a Mean Girl! A whiny, panicky little bitch that makes life hell for everyone and is in no way cool at all! He's a clone of a guy that inspires fear in everyone yet no one really even bats an eye as he tries to top them. He's a tool, he fails, and I LOVE IT. ♥ Even when he turns over a teeny tiny new leaf at the end of Gravitation, he is still a priss and entirely bitchbitchbitch about it. I will not lie that I apped him with the sole purpose of chewing out as many people as I could, because that is what Fujisaki does. He chews people out, calculates, and is better than you.
But he has a flip-side in play! While he has a strong personality, Fujisaki is nearly blank slate for how much he actually appears in canon and with how many times Murakami jerks his characterization around. As much as I may personally fight and ignore Murakami, I have a lot of room to play and personalize. He has a huge head canon in my mind that I can comfortably know will never be joss'd and he's half mine at this point. I was scared of that for awhile, because oh god I was used to playing the main characters-- THE LEADS who have everything about them spelled out, and what was I doing with someone as vague as this. But as I have given Murakami the finger so I have done the same with that fear, and I regret it not. T-The fact that everyone seems to give me a thumbs up in this endeavour helps. askdhaslk Thanks, guys! So, I love having this huge amount of flexibility with my playing of him. He gives me fodder for thought and essays and more which is just beautiful, because I love getting to tinker over things like that. I love getting to watch him evolve and keep turning over new leaves as he becomes more and more my character. Even though, he keeps fighting with me at the moment, I still love him so darn much.
whew, i'm going to get tired by the end of this
Joshua
Shoot, I can't remember. I. . . like. . . to play assholes? Honestly, he hit my pings many years ago with the beach scene that I dimly remembered and decided on that to app him. Then, I read the rest of the canon, lolol five and eight, and fell hard. He has a lot of depth in canon that you wouldn't expect, but he's still a huge mystery. Not one scene features him acting like he does in another. It's bloody confusing and really, really awesome. Like most everyone, I really do love him just for being a really sexy, well-spoken, psychotic rapist. I just wanted to play one and I liked him more than all the others that I pondered, like Hiead.
My love for Joshua comes out more in play though. He's really difficult to control in any way or even understand, so he's sort of a private gem of mine. It isn't even growing in camp, because he really hasn't done much of that at all. It's just getting to see him operate and move in a larger presence then he gets in canon. I honestly just have to sit down and play entirely intuitively without pondering would he do this or that based on canon. (Note: This actually gets kind of scary sometimes. Help, help! I can channel murderous intent!) Joshua is just a really dynamic and unusual character like that. It's really quite amazing, and it functions for me. I honestly keep meaning to sit down and explain how he operates so everyone else can see how he works that makes me love him so much beyond causing havoc and throwing barbs at everyone else. But I think in the process of writing this, no one really needs to know that and have the mystery explained. It made me love him more, because I get to actively uncover all of these things that not even Joshua thinks on. It really is fun to just let the surprises unravel as people discover things about him along the way, like how he doesn't hate so-and-so and things like that.
It's really hard to explain, but Joshua is sort of a comforting presence to fall back on for me. He just comes naturally as scary as that is, and I know he'll never bore me. I play him as little or as much as I want to, and he's golden. So, while yay yay I'm playing a rapist \o/, there's really so much more to it to the point where the fact that I really don't even think of him as a rapist first and more like. . . It's his other side that doesn't have a name, but it's there. Anyway, it's that other side that makes me love Joshua a lot and it's all~ mine~.
Kizna
I GET TO VIOLENCE PEOPLE OUT OF EMBARRASSMENT WHAT'S NOT TO LOVE? Are you guys getting this trend? Aaah, I'm a horrible person, whatever.
Honestly, Kizna is. . . It's embarrassing that I overlooked her for over a year when I kept shaking Megami Kouhosei to give me a character to app. If you give her two seconds, she will completely endear you to her and kick you in the teeth with her strength and awesome. She doesn't sit down and play the default female role. She pushes through, and she's damn near unstoppable. Even with all of that, she is more than just the kickass female lead. Kizna is really dumb and ignorant. She can be insensitive! She can also be really tender and effeminate. What are you really going to do with a character that is mentioned to have a very masculine speech in omake yet cries when her partner rips her hat off her head after slapping him? The canon is short and she doesn't get enough time, but Kizna really is this sort of limitless character.
And all of that? I discovered through play. I get to see even more of her weak sides and her ideologies. She's elusive at times, because she really will meld herself to her situation rather than gunning through it like you would expect. She is amazing to play in camp with her flexibility. Kizna will be sincere and caring towards others, but kick you when you are just wallowing in grief like a baby. She will admit that she's scared or embarrassed, and speaks up her mind. SHE ANSWERS MY RELATIONSHIP MEMES FOR ME IN THREAD, WTF. I really don't think I could tire of Kizna, because she really is never the same thing twice. I set her apart from canon a lot, because as much as I adore MK, it won't ever be re-created at all in camp. So, I get that room to play that I love with her in a really new way, and it's just fun to play. Honestly, her interactions with other characters makes me so happy. I unabashedly thread-whore her with her group (YOU GUYS KNOW WHO YOU ARE), because I love every single thread she has with them. Yeah, I just really love every thing about her character and playing her right down to her icons. My only regret is not getting any more canon, sooob.
no srsly i'm tired now
Miyako
She still has the new character smell, uwah. Can you guess? CAN YOU GUESS WHY I LOVE HER? YES, SHE TELLS OFF MIDDLE SCHOOLERS AND ADULTS AS AN ELEMENTARY STUDENT. She throws a bucket at Makoto who everyone else is frightened of, because she is not putting up with your damn shenanigans. Miyako looks and acts like that Samara-esque character, that mysterious loli, but when she speaks she has the potential of just flipping that on you. For as delicate as she appears, she still has a great inner strength. Even then, as mature and strong as she is, she's still a little girl. Ghost Hound is about crazy adventures of three kids out of their bodies, yes. But it's also about just family issues, about the basic needs everyone has-- To be loved and accepted by their family. Also, Miyako is so darn pretty. I can't even really fathom how many jaws will drop around when she's older, but she will break so many hearts. It amuses me to no end.
Miyako took a different kind of tempering for me. Where I had to get into the groove of pissing people off with Fujisaki and Joshua then being overbearing with Kizna, Miyako doesn't respond. She doesn't like to talk and has no inclination to speak with anyone at all. She has a huge wall around her that she keeps up. As difficult as she is, I still love playing this angle. She's still a child and small acts of kindness will chip her shields till she ends up clinging to someone in her own way. I love when this happens. Miyako is more dynamic than she'd appear, and even if I end up having a small party when she speaks more than one sentence. I love putting the work and effort in to get that party. Of course, I get a lot to ponder over with her. She has a lot churning under the surface so it's always fun to peek over and see what's happening there. Honestly, I have a bit more of the way to go to be completely heads over heels in love with her from playing her, not that I'm more than halfway there. But I think a lot of the love for Miyako is just a new challenge and the amazing potential she has. I know she's frustrating to play against, but I enjoy every moment of it. I really hope others are too.
AND I KNOW I'M MISSING LOTS OF STUFF. BUT HONESTLY. I LOVE MY CURRENT CREW LOTS.