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well last night pretty much blew...actually, it fucking SUCKED...i may have figured it out, but i dont know how to deal w/ it...gah, w/e, this isnt a big deal...its just annoying...and i hate making ppl feel like shit, which i think is wat im doing right now...:-\...
but right now im freaking out cause play auditions are tomorrow...im SO nervous...like i cant even tell u...im practicing for like 5000 hours tonight...thank god i have "cliff's notes" for it, cause i really have issues understanding shakespeare...but my GOD i dont know wat ill do if i dont make this...like ppl really dont get how big of a deal this is for me, like i pretty much LIVE for acting...and if i dont make it, especially since this is an ACTUAL play instead of a gay dinner theatre, ill just freak right out...sooo pretty much i better make it...luckily not many ppl are trying out...at least according to the try-out sheet as of friday afternoon...soooo i guess that gives me a good chance...hopefully a certain WHORE doesnt make it too...and well, if he does and he decides to be gay and try to talk to me, ill just be forced to bitch him out:) which i will do...and i would actually greatly enjoy...*evil chuckle*
so in conclusion--boys are stupid and confusing and i will have a breakdown if i dont make the play(and by make it i mean have a fairly-major role)
but right now im freaking out cause play auditions are tomorrow...im SO nervous...like i cant even tell u...im practicing for like 5000 hours tonight...thank god i have "cliff's notes" for it, cause i really have issues understanding shakespeare...but my GOD i dont know wat ill do if i dont make this...like ppl really dont get how big of a deal this is for me, like i pretty much LIVE for acting...and if i dont make it, especially since this is an ACTUAL play instead of a gay dinner theatre, ill just freak right out...sooo pretty much i better make it...luckily not many ppl are trying out...at least according to the try-out sheet as of friday afternoon...soooo i guess that gives me a good chance...hopefully a certain WHORE doesnt make it too...and well, if he does and he decides to be gay and try to talk to me, ill just be forced to bitch him out:) which i will do...and i would actually greatly enjoy...*evil chuckle*
so in conclusion--boys are stupid and confusing and i will have a breakdown if i dont make the play(and by make it i mean have a fairly-major role)