people are not nice
i'd like to think of myself as a fairly level-headed, likeable person, and a good friend.
maybe i'm completely off base with that, but until someone tells me otherwise, i'm going with it.
so why, being the decent human being that i am, do i constantly get blown off, ignored, and otherwise walked all over by people who call themselves my friends?
yes, i got blown off yesterday. and it made me angry. not so much for the fact that it was a movie i really wanted to go see, but the fact that he's my friend. who for some reason can't even give me the time of day or have the decency to keep plans.
"so you still want to go to the movie tonight, right?"
"uh, actually, no, not really."
"you're kidding."
*i turn around, friend already gone*
text message from me: you know, next time give me a little more warning if you're going to blow me off. i actually was looking forward to going tonight, and seeing how it was your idea...?
text message from friend: i'm sorry :(
and that was it. hasn't called to reschedule, to give me a better reason...nothing. and do you know what he did last night? sat on his computer and played games. i know because his aim away message said so.
i'm so not impressed right now.
but that's not the worst of it. yes, i know i sound a little selfish right now, but, after the few weeks of total upheaval and disorientation that i've had, i think i deserve a little caring from my friends. after all, i've done the same for them, many many times.
so yeah, i get blown off, but i still wanted to do something last night. i got a big commission check yesterday, i wanted to celebrate. i called another friend (girl this time) and asked her if she wanted to come out and have dinner with me, my treat. and maybe go hang out at the mall for a little bit. not that bad of a request right? seeing how she's on break and doesn't have any homework...
...but no, she launches into this speel about how she really doesn't feel like shopping and doesn't feel like getting dragged around and doesn't really feel like doing anything so she just decides to sit at home and...
...sit on the computer!
seriously? seriously?
my friends suck. the one time i actually ask if people will come hang out with me they blow me off. i can't count how many times i've gone out with them just because they wanted to. my friend (the second one, the girl) dragged me to a party on friday that i didn't want to go to, with people i didn't like, and she got trashed and i had to take care of her. and she can't go out to dinner with me, and i'm paying?
wtf?!
i give. i need new friends. friends that aren't 'the world revolves around me' type of people. i'm not that type of person, and it makes me angry when i can't count on people to care.
so i guess, i'm done caring about them for now.
on a side note, this whole breakup and re-evaluation of my life thing has made me realize that i need to be more vocal about how i feel. i mean, i write it all here, but that doesn't do me much good. the peolpe that need to hear it don't. so i'm working on that, the whole telling people i'm mad thing. if they get offended, oh well! i'm allowed to be mad.
and i'm pissed right now. and they'll know it tomorrow.
i'll let you know how it goes.
maybe i'm completely off base with that, but until someone tells me otherwise, i'm going with it.
so why, being the decent human being that i am, do i constantly get blown off, ignored, and otherwise walked all over by people who call themselves my friends?
yes, i got blown off yesterday. and it made me angry. not so much for the fact that it was a movie i really wanted to go see, but the fact that he's my friend. who for some reason can't even give me the time of day or have the decency to keep plans.
"so you still want to go to the movie tonight, right?"
"uh, actually, no, not really."
"you're kidding."
*i turn around, friend already gone*
text message from me: you know, next time give me a little more warning if you're going to blow me off. i actually was looking forward to going tonight, and seeing how it was your idea...?
text message from friend: i'm sorry :(
and that was it. hasn't called to reschedule, to give me a better reason...nothing. and do you know what he did last night? sat on his computer and played games. i know because his aim away message said so.
i'm so not impressed right now.
but that's not the worst of it. yes, i know i sound a little selfish right now, but, after the few weeks of total upheaval and disorientation that i've had, i think i deserve a little caring from my friends. after all, i've done the same for them, many many times.
so yeah, i get blown off, but i still wanted to do something last night. i got a big commission check yesterday, i wanted to celebrate. i called another friend (girl this time) and asked her if she wanted to come out and have dinner with me, my treat. and maybe go hang out at the mall for a little bit. not that bad of a request right? seeing how she's on break and doesn't have any homework...
...but no, she launches into this speel about how she really doesn't feel like shopping and doesn't feel like getting dragged around and doesn't really feel like doing anything so she just decides to sit at home and...
...sit on the computer!
seriously? seriously?
my friends suck. the one time i actually ask if people will come hang out with me they blow me off. i can't count how many times i've gone out with them just because they wanted to. my friend (the second one, the girl) dragged me to a party on friday that i didn't want to go to, with people i didn't like, and she got trashed and i had to take care of her. and she can't go out to dinner with me, and i'm paying?
wtf?!
i give. i need new friends. friends that aren't 'the world revolves around me' type of people. i'm not that type of person, and it makes me angry when i can't count on people to care.
so i guess, i'm done caring about them for now.
on a side note, this whole breakup and re-evaluation of my life thing has made me realize that i need to be more vocal about how i feel. i mean, i write it all here, but that doesn't do me much good. the peolpe that need to hear it don't. so i'm working on that, the whole telling people i'm mad thing. if they get offended, oh well! i'm allowed to be mad.
and i'm pissed right now. and they'll know it tomorrow.
i'll let you know how it goes.