SHE IS ALIVE (and well.)
HI.
Alive.
So in love it's ridiculous. I have butterflies again and I don't even know why.
We've been away from each other since... Sunday, so it might be that. He's coming here on Tuesday and then going home before New Years and then we'll both be back in the flat on the 8th. BUT OMG ONLY 4 DAYS UNTIL I GET TO FALL ASLEEP NEXT TO HIM AGAIN. I miss his neck. The smell of him... especially on his neck.
Yes, I've had doubts. Still do, sometimes. But now I'm all "fuck it, things go wrong all the time. everything's so right now I don't even care about the bad stuff" and I don't. Because butterfliesssssssssss.
But, yes. Life in general is good. I smoke too much though. And I miss being vegan, so as soon as I get back home (I'm obv. at my parents' place over Christmas) I'm going vegan again. Mostly because I find eggs and dairy so disgusting. Partly because I need to lose weight again. And it'll def. go better when I can't eat 8/10 of the stuff you can buy in school.
School! HAVE I EVEN TOLD YOUSE ALL WHAT I'M DOING?
Probably.
Anyways. I'm at one of the smallest universities in Sweden. Skövde. (Because you all know/care about where that is.)
And I'm doing Consciousness Studies - Cognitive Neuroscience and Philosophy. So it's all "what is consciousness, where in the brain is it located and how does everything work and TRUST NOTHING." ... Pretty much. I love it. I've passed two out of three courses so far. I had a serious problem with sleeping for a few weeks, which made me miss out on a lot, thus: fail...age. I have another exam on Basic Neuroscience on the 12th and I AM EXCITED. Which a 15 year-old me would never have believed. My classmates are amazing. Half of the teachers are amazing (like the one who bought a Harry Potter wand replica to every single lecture?). And it's a nice town. And my boyfriend... and... YES.
And planning my future. So far I've decided I don't want a job, I want to be a hippie and live in a tent in a warm country where I can spend all my time growing my own food and meditating. It simply can't fail. ... Right? I also want to be a writer, a scientist who figures out the mystery of life and then I want to spend the rest of my life traveling the world in a Volkswagen bus, spreading my knowledge/helping people/writing a book about my travels/reaching "Nirvana". Or just get an average job and pretend things are fine and think about my own happiness instead of others.
If I want to become a writer, I should re-teach myself how to write more eloquently. LOLSORI.
I miss you all. Merry Christmas (or whatever similar holiday you choose to celebrate) and all that. Let me know how you're doing? LOVE.
Alive.
So in love it's ridiculous. I have butterflies again and I don't even know why.
We've been away from each other since... Sunday, so it might be that. He's coming here on Tuesday and then going home before New Years and then we'll both be back in the flat on the 8th. BUT OMG ONLY 4 DAYS UNTIL I GET TO FALL ASLEEP NEXT TO HIM AGAIN. I miss his neck. The smell of him... especially on his neck.
Yes, I've had doubts. Still do, sometimes. But now I'm all "fuck it, things go wrong all the time. everything's so right now I don't even care about the bad stuff" and I don't. Because butterfliesssssssssss.
But, yes. Life in general is good. I smoke too much though. And I miss being vegan, so as soon as I get back home (I'm obv. at my parents' place over Christmas) I'm going vegan again. Mostly because I find eggs and dairy so disgusting. Partly because I need to lose weight again. And it'll def. go better when I can't eat 8/10 of the stuff you can buy in school.
School! HAVE I EVEN TOLD YOUSE ALL WHAT I'M DOING?
Probably.
Anyways. I'm at one of the smallest universities in Sweden. Skövde. (Because you all know/care about where that is.)
And I'm doing Consciousness Studies - Cognitive Neuroscience and Philosophy. So it's all "what is consciousness, where in the brain is it located and how does everything work and TRUST NOTHING." ... Pretty much. I love it. I've passed two out of three courses so far. I had a serious problem with sleeping for a few weeks, which made me miss out on a lot, thus: fail...age. I have another exam on Basic Neuroscience on the 12th and I AM EXCITED. Which a 15 year-old me would never have believed. My classmates are amazing. Half of the teachers are amazing (like the one who bought a Harry Potter wand replica to every single lecture?). And it's a nice town. And my boyfriend... and... YES.
And planning my future. So far I've decided I don't want a job, I want to be a hippie and live in a tent in a warm country where I can spend all my time growing my own food and meditating. It simply can't fail. ... Right? I also want to be a writer, a scientist who figures out the mystery of life and then I want to spend the rest of my life traveling the world in a Volkswagen bus, spreading my knowledge/helping people/writing a book about my travels/reaching "Nirvana". Or just get an average job and pretend things are fine and think about my own happiness instead of others.
If I want to become a writer, I should re-teach myself how to write more eloquently. LOLSORI.
I miss you all. Merry Christmas (or whatever similar holiday you choose to celebrate) and all that. Let me know how you're doing? LOVE.