the life i once lived is now being uprooted.
dear beloved,
i dont know whether to say you have finally succeeded or its my own mind slipping in and out of reality.
but today, i thought about you. i thought alot about you. and i dont know if you noticed or took the time to notice that you have taught me alot in my lifetime but there is one lesson that stands out the most.you know exactly what i am talking about.
but today i thought alot about where i would be with out this lesson, and i came to the conslusion that i would be exactly like you. i still havent decided if that's what i want or if thats what i try so hard not to be. i still have more thinking to do.
today i thought alot about you and the times we had that i will never forget.ever.the priceless hours we spent together on the beach jsut looking out at the lake and talking about what it would feel like to be a fish living in there. and the days we took the boat out on the lake and stayed there together till we couldnt keep out eyes open anymore.fuck i miss those days, the days i could call you and see you when ever i wanted to, its not like anymore is it? and im not quite sure it will ever go back to that.
today i cried and cried and cried until i had nothing else in my body to shed. i cried becauase i realized i miss you so much that i cant even bear being in my own body anymore and all i have to remind myself of you is a locket with our pictures in and a locket in which you had engravedmy name onthe front and on the back "Love, ____". i am not able to really look at myself in the mirror becuase all i see is a reflection of you and i go back to thinking about all our days together.
sometimes i wonder of you think about me and wonder how i am doing.
people ask me how i can still respect and love someone that has hurt over and over again, and i never know how to answer them i havent thought of a way yet. my love and respect for you is unexplainable no one will ever understand all the harsh years i had to endure, and i did it all with an enormous heart.
you gave me life and i return it with all my love.
today was the day i finally broke down, becuase i dont know what to do, i need to talk to somone but no one will listen they might act like it but they arent really listening
i fucking cried today becuase your not here and i miss you.
please come home soon
i love you.
your brown eyed girl,
michelle brooks
i dont know whether to say you have finally succeeded or its my own mind slipping in and out of reality.
but today, i thought about you. i thought alot about you. and i dont know if you noticed or took the time to notice that you have taught me alot in my lifetime but there is one lesson that stands out the most.you know exactly what i am talking about.
but today i thought alot about where i would be with out this lesson, and i came to the conslusion that i would be exactly like you. i still havent decided if that's what i want or if thats what i try so hard not to be. i still have more thinking to do.
today i thought alot about you and the times we had that i will never forget.ever.the priceless hours we spent together on the beach jsut looking out at the lake and talking about what it would feel like to be a fish living in there. and the days we took the boat out on the lake and stayed there together till we couldnt keep out eyes open anymore.fuck i miss those days, the days i could call you and see you when ever i wanted to, its not like anymore is it? and im not quite sure it will ever go back to that.
today i cried and cried and cried until i had nothing else in my body to shed. i cried becauase i realized i miss you so much that i cant even bear being in my own body anymore and all i have to remind myself of you is a locket with our pictures in and a locket in which you had engravedmy name onthe front and on the back "Love, ____". i am not able to really look at myself in the mirror becuase all i see is a reflection of you and i go back to thinking about all our days together.
sometimes i wonder of you think about me and wonder how i am doing.
people ask me how i can still respect and love someone that has hurt over and over again, and i never know how to answer them i havent thought of a way yet. my love and respect for you is unexplainable no one will ever understand all the harsh years i had to endure, and i did it all with an enormous heart.
you gave me life and i return it with all my love.
today was the day i finally broke down, becuase i dont know what to do, i need to talk to somone but no one will listen they might act like it but they arent really listening
i fucking cried today becuase your not here and i miss you.
please come home soon
i love you.
your brown eyed girl,
michelle brooks