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i think i had a brake down tonite...
ive felt so overwhelmed lately
like ive been running on empty
and pretty lonely ( this is not a pitty me hang out with me so dont take it that way because it just is what is)
i guess i just feel like this isnt even my life anymore
i feel like im on the outside looking in
my life is nothing of what it used to be
some of this ive chosen some i havent
the very very few that i was close with have moved or lost touch...
jessica w moved to la... bestfriend aka pestika moved to san diego...brother moved to santa maria or pismo or some shit...shwee and me just dont really talk.. to seprate lives now i guess our lives grew apart i dont really know
i just feel overwhelmed lately
and ive been trying my hardest to make things right in some aspects of my life but it is so hard when you know you are trying with every once in your body.. but it doesnt even seem to be working well...
i also get really nervous with change and i dont really like it
which probablly isnt helping since EVERYTHING is changing
i think i have anxiety but im trying... and im rambling
and all i want is to vent
and i guess the only reason why im writting here is because its a place to vent
and it this point im not really worried of what it sound like cause truthfully...
WHAT DO I GOT TO LOOSE?
ive felt so overwhelmed lately
like ive been running on empty
and pretty lonely ( this is not a pitty me hang out with me so dont take it that way because it just is what is)
i guess i just feel like this isnt even my life anymore
i feel like im on the outside looking in
my life is nothing of what it used to be
some of this ive chosen some i havent
the very very few that i was close with have moved or lost touch...
jessica w moved to la... bestfriend aka pestika moved to san diego...brother moved to santa maria or pismo or some shit...shwee and me just dont really talk.. to seprate lives now i guess our lives grew apart i dont really know
i just feel overwhelmed lately
and ive been trying my hardest to make things right in some aspects of my life but it is so hard when you know you are trying with every once in your body.. but it doesnt even seem to be working well...
i also get really nervous with change and i dont really like it
which probablly isnt helping since EVERYTHING is changing
i think i have anxiety but im trying... and im rambling
and all i want is to vent
and i guess the only reason why im writting here is because its a place to vent
and it this point im not really worried of what it sound like cause truthfully...
WHAT DO I GOT TO LOOSE?