My goodness!
Do you love the way I go from posting compulsively to posting once a week?
All is quiet on the home front. Family life is good, which is always a plus, work is good, even though I'm kinda stressing about it a little bit lately, and my friends are as phenomenal as ever. I miss the 413 crew like crazy. I was supposed to go up there tonight, tomorrow, and Monday, but due to my buss boy blowing us off the other day, I now have to work tomorrow. Bastard. I'm trying to get Alz in there, but she's not making it easy on me because of her pre-existing scheduel, but I know she'll make it in due time. It'll be fiiiiiiiine. :)
I'm happy. I really almost feel like I've found that balance that I've spent most of my life looking for. I have a good job where I make great money and it's just time for me to man up and be an adult and not party 5 nights a week and all that blahblahblah. I almost feel like I'm ready to chill with a book instead of going out drinking every night lol... I dunno, maybe I'm just really tired of being the trashbucket everyone has me pegged to be for the rest of my life. The scariest thing in life is change. Changing your whole life and outlook on it is particularly frightening. I think I can do it though. I mean it this time. :) The people that I am choosing to surround myself with right now care about me the way I deserve to be cared about. The people that I love deserve to be loved by me. I think that might be a first. I have an amazing boyfriend who would do anything to make me happy-- Anything. He tells me what I need to hear, not what I WANT to hear. He puts my happiness in front of his own. That's DEFINITLY a first.
THIS is the best I can ever remember being.
All is quiet on the home front. Family life is good, which is always a plus, work is good, even though I'm kinda stressing about it a little bit lately, and my friends are as phenomenal as ever. I miss the 413 crew like crazy. I was supposed to go up there tonight, tomorrow, and Monday, but due to my buss boy blowing us off the other day, I now have to work tomorrow. Bastard. I'm trying to get Alz in there, but she's not making it easy on me because of her pre-existing scheduel, but I know she'll make it in due time. It'll be fiiiiiiiine. :)
I'm happy. I really almost feel like I've found that balance that I've spent most of my life looking for. I have a good job where I make great money and it's just time for me to man up and be an adult and not party 5 nights a week and all that blahblahblah. I almost feel like I'm ready to chill with a book instead of going out drinking every night lol... I dunno, maybe I'm just really tired of being the trashbucket everyone has me pegged to be for the rest of my life. The scariest thing in life is change. Changing your whole life and outlook on it is particularly frightening. I think I can do it though. I mean it this time. :) The people that I am choosing to surround myself with right now care about me the way I deserve to be cared about. The people that I love deserve to be loved by me. I think that might be a first. I have an amazing boyfriend who would do anything to make me happy-- Anything. He tells me what I need to hear, not what I WANT to hear. He puts my happiness in front of his own. That's DEFINITLY a first.
THIS is the best I can ever remember being.