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A: When I think of all that we have been through together I honestly don't know how were still here.... I know I love you and I know you love me too but this love has gotten to a sick new level. From the moment your hands hit the flesh of my neck I knew things had taken a turn for the worst and ever since then I feel like we've been scrambling to pick up the piesces. Is this worth fixing? Is it even fixable? Is the love I feel for you enough to even make the effort anymore? So many things about you make me bat shit crazy yet I feel a safety wash over me when I'm with you that not any other man has ever made me feel, except maybe my dad. I don't know what is goin to be the end all of this, but I know its coming soon. It's coming fast. And either way, I KNOW its going to be hard.
B: And then theres you... you who I cant forget and cant give in to all at the same time and it is a shit storm to say the least. This constant tug of war that we play is getting so out dated... and the pain we feel each time the phone is left to another unanswered end has got to be exhausting. I know its exhausting me. Can we just call it quits or pick up the pieces again? And like pronto? Because i cant seem to strive for anything in my life right now and part of me believes its because i still don't know where we stand... what we are going to be. So break my heart or set me free.... Just please make a move and do one of these because if you don't I don't think I will ever be able to leave.
C: My dear dear baby.... all I can say is that i love you and no matter what please don't ever forget that. One day it will all make sense.
D: You... my crutch. No longer anymore and I'm glad you found your strength... just don't keep me from the one thing that keeps me alive. Dont let your need to control and dictate all of our lives keep 2 people from the bond that makes thier very fiber. I know im not exactly mad at you. I guess besides when it comes to HIM, when it comes to you.... I'm speechless.