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I've been MIA for quite some time from the internet. We don't have it anymore at home because comcast apparently does not like when people don't pay their bills. Who knew? We're switching to AT&T anyway because comcast is ridiculous, and this time we're just getting internet and not cable because neither one of us watches tv very much and it will save us a lot of money.
I'm both excited and anxious about Christmas. I have very little (none, really) money and the desire to buy presents for people (and a tree, and decorations). At the same time I love this holiday, especially this year, because now that I'm out of retail I a) don't have to work 2 days straight for 10 hours a day and b) get a 3 day weekend after Christmas and a 4 day weekend after for new years.
Life is stressful, I get myself into bad cycles that I need to break, and I'm really in need of health insurance so I can go back to seeing a therapist and getting medication, but I'm surviving. Paul is my saving grace, and he definitely takes care of me. Times like these I feel very young and very old at the same time, and I'm trying to find a way to start acting and feeling my age. I haven't quite figured out how to balance responsibility and having fun, although really, that's always been a problem of mine.
I guess all I can do is look forward to the good times and survive the not so good times.
Don't forget me, I'll try to check in again soon. I miss writing so very much, and my creativity has been lacking horribly, but I'm trying.
In case I'm not around before then, happy holidays!
I'm both excited and anxious about Christmas. I have very little (none, really) money and the desire to buy presents for people (and a tree, and decorations). At the same time I love this holiday, especially this year, because now that I'm out of retail I a) don't have to work 2 days straight for 10 hours a day and b) get a 3 day weekend after Christmas and a 4 day weekend after for new years.
Life is stressful, I get myself into bad cycles that I need to break, and I'm really in need of health insurance so I can go back to seeing a therapist and getting medication, but I'm surviving. Paul is my saving grace, and he definitely takes care of me. Times like these I feel very young and very old at the same time, and I'm trying to find a way to start acting and feeling my age. I haven't quite figured out how to balance responsibility and having fun, although really, that's always been a problem of mine.
I guess all I can do is look forward to the good times and survive the not so good times.
Don't forget me, I'll try to check in again soon. I miss writing so very much, and my creativity has been lacking horribly, but I'm trying.
In case I'm not around before then, happy holidays!