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My mind is a whirlwind.
The adderral and grain alcohol don't help.
My brain is a mess.
I'm tired of taking care of people. I'm tired of drug abuse. I'm tired of stopping others self destruction when I can't even stop my own. I'm tired of slurred words and hazy eyes and kisses that taste like day old booze. Where do you find someone who has their head on straight? Someone who doesn't mind that I need therapy. Someone that can keep me happy. Someone who knows how to find the good in each day without blowing happiness and drinking contentment.
Surrounded by good people, I'm okay. By myself? My mind takes over.
My heart hurts in more ways than one.
I've never asked for anything but stability, happiness and good people. Unfortunately those are the hardest things to find.
The adderral and grain alcohol don't help.
My brain is a mess.
I'm tired of taking care of people. I'm tired of drug abuse. I'm tired of stopping others self destruction when I can't even stop my own. I'm tired of slurred words and hazy eyes and kisses that taste like day old booze. Where do you find someone who has their head on straight? Someone who doesn't mind that I need therapy. Someone that can keep me happy. Someone who knows how to find the good in each day without blowing happiness and drinking contentment.
Surrounded by good people, I'm okay. By myself? My mind takes over.
My heart hurts in more ways than one.
I've never asked for anything but stability, happiness and good people. Unfortunately those are the hardest things to find.