Not so little you and I anymore...
I am hurt by Kelly's actions.
But, I can honestlu say that things finally feel normal.
I wrote Kelly an email today.
Hold on, I'll get it so you can read it.
It's not long or anything.
"Dear Kelly,
I don't have much to say to you other then you really really hurt me.
Almost worse then your sister did because atleast your sister never just walked out on me without a word.
You owe me an apology but I don't want it now. I want it when you grow up. I deserve an adult apology.
I busted my ass to make sure you were ok.
I did for you what none of your other friends would ever even dream of doing.
I'm gonna go now because I don't want to say anything that I will regret later.
I hope you understand that you fucked up.
You seriously hurt my feelings.
Don't respond to this because like I said I want an adult apology.
P.S. The bow on the tv was a fucking slap in the face so thanks for that!
- Ashli"
On a lighter note:
Jade and I started working out about three weeks ago and it's been something I've grown to look
forward to.
I know that I am a work in progress and I haven't treated my body with the respect it deserves.
I feel better already.
My clothes fit better.
I'm happy with the results so far but it's not even so much how I look, it's more about how I feel.
Working out makes me feel great!
Yesterday, For the first time in my entire life I actaully missed my mom.
I've never been close enough with her to miss her.
Yesterday sucked.
I was a total fuck ass to Jade.
She understands though and she's amazing.
It's a wonderful feeling to know that even though I don't have the comfort of having a family I still
have Jade to wake up to everymorning.
And I have the most amazing friends!
Speaking of them...
Mel had a pumpkin carving party this saturday.
She was so cute.
She's my lesbian martha inspiration. :D
It was fun. Kim and I were the only ones to show up but I didn't mind.
I like Kimmie.
I had a blast.
I felt like Jami and I really had a chance to catch up.
It was nice. She and Mel are so great! I really do enjoy hanging out with them.
It's never a dull time! :D
I'm taking my little brother Drake to Halloween horror nights.
I talked about going with Jade, Mel, Jami and the other dykes but Mel wasn't too into it and neither was Jade.
Anyway- I really miss Drake. He's my favorite.
I feel like we've lost touch. I don't know. we use to be soooo close and now he's in middle school
and now girls and friends are what's up so, he really doesn't have time to hangout with his lame big sister.
I understand. And I also knew this day would come. I've just been dreading it. lol.
So, anyway, I really wanted to go to Halloween horror nights and I heard that Drake did too and I invited him and he said he wants to go!
I'm so excited.
I'm gonna buy our tickets probably tomorrow!
We are gonna have so much fun!
I think it'll be a good way for us to bond again!
SO, randomly I was unpacking and I came across an old cd holder with cd's in it from when i was in high school.
I was excited.
I listened to part of a cd on my way to work.
It was a cd of Tiffany Bailey and Tony T. Ravor!
haha! It was awesome.
I would leave Tiffany a comment on myspace and let her know but she never responds so it's
not worth it but the cd still made me feel all fuzzy with feelings from high school. :D
And I also came across a cd Tiffany made for Sarah.
I don't know how I ended up with it but I wanna return to her because it wasn't made for me.
::note to self:: Bring cd for Sarah when you go to see her perform at veg fest!!!
Ok. This is like the longest post i've made in a long time.
:D
Awesome.