love and sex.....
so today was good.......... im telling you as long as im dancing everything in my world is perfect... well not perfect but its good... heh....im freakin obsessed, but i dont even give a shit....... its not even what i do, its who i am...i would so much rather be dancing then doing anything else in teh whole entire world, i kid you not.. yea i may sound like a psycho... but its not crazy, well it probably is mildly crazy.... but its a good crazy, its good to have a passion, or a lot of passion for something.. the problem with passion is, you cant control it...sometimes the desire to dance and let go of everything gets so strong if i dont do it for a few days and it can make u pretty edgy....i've been pretty "edgy" until today for that very reason... i wonder if people who have strong passions about writing or about painting or music are like that...im sure they are....... i think its all the same... the whole "arts" thiing... the whole desire, passion thing...i find lately that i can't really relate to people who dont have a strong passion for something, cause basically how can they get me and how can i get them if we dont connect on that having a focus or passion level........what do people do who dont have a passion? like what the hell drives and motivates them? or maybe everyone does have one and they dont know it? hahah or maybe im just talkng a bunch of shit and rambling??? so i watched this movie called "love and sex" last night.... it was actually really good and made me think.....just about timing in life and all this other shit....like timing really is what makes or breaks a lot...... which ive known, cause i think anythng ive ever failed at has not been cause i am a failure or anything liek that , its been cause of horrible timing... everything...university of the arts.... the busch gardens/cruise thing...... unc charlotte.... any failed relationship....etc.... its like if ive been ready for something, the other person or thing has not been at that time, or if something or someone was ready for me, i was not ready at that time...if that makes sense... it does to me.......... so its all about the exact right timing......the 'readiness' has to coincide with both things or people.....or it cant possibly work......... no shit.