anything.everything.nothing.

[totheend_frank]

What is my life meant to be?

I couldn't tell you. And...I don't know if I really want to know yet. I wanna find out as I go along.

I'm spinning in circles. I'm laying still. I'm here. I'm there. I'm nowhere. Never to be found.

I want everything in my life to disappear. I want to stand alone in the darkness until I can't take it anymore. I want to need something. I want to need nothing.

I just want to understand. And live. And travel. And sing. And paint. And create art with my mind.

I want to capture emotions that can't be seen on film. I want to feel...anything.

I want to laugh. I want to cry. I want to smile. I want to frown. I want to do something important. I want the things I do to mean something. I want to do something I mean. I want the ordinary things to be important.

I want love. I want a boy to call my own. I want to be dependent on someone else. I want to never feel love. I want to be alone. I want independence.

To sum it up, I want everything and nothing all at once.