Unhackable//Private to that idiot Lawnheadhurricanebomb59July 21 2009, 01:02:11 UTC
Honestly, how many times do we have to have this conversation? You didn't force me into anything. When, in the entire time you've known me, have I ever let myself be forced into something I didn't want?
Yes, I still have feelings for the Tenth. I always will. It's not something I can help. But, and this is the most important thing I can say about it, it isn't something that I'm going to let hold me back. He doesn't return those feelings, and maybe he never did. I've accepted that and I'm trying to move on. I had thought that I was moving on with you.
If you're having second thoughts about us, then... We can talk about it. Things end, I understand that. If that's what you want now, then so be it. I can get my things and be on my way. Don't take that as an ultimatum, either. It's really very simple, Ryohei. Either we're together or we aren't. Just tell me which way you want it. Running away isn't going to solve anything.
Unhackable//Private to the bastard octopusheadtothe_xtremeJuly 21 2009, 01:12:43 UTC
Yeah yeah, well you seem to forget I forget things real easy so sometimes things have to be repeated. Sorry but that's just how it works. It's not something I can really help a whole lot. Reborn forced you into a lot of things. For the record.
It's hard to think you're moving on when were at each others throats more since he moved in with us. It's like every little thing sets you off now. Hell I swear I could breath wrong and piss you off at this point. Its not like I aim to make you angry I just do, you gotta see where the concern comes from.
I'm not having second thoughts, I'm thinking about whats going to make you happy in the long run. I feel like I'm just driving you're stress up by just being me. And I don't want you to have to be angry all the time. But yes I like the idea of us being together but I just don't feel like that's really what you want, like I more forced it on you and you're just rolling with it to make me feel better. now thats not saying your a giving person.
Unhackable//Private to that dumbass with stupid hairhurricanebomb59July 21 2009, 01:37:05 UTC
You'd think with as much as I've said it, you'd remember it. And not anything like this, for the record.
It's not you, it's really not. Well, to a certain degree it is, but... You know how I am, and this is all just a lot to deal with all at once. You're here, he's here, and it feels like I'm stuck. You've toned down the jealousy, and I appreciate that, but at the same time you just feel... different. When we're here together, sure, we fight. And instead of trying to work through things, you run. It makes things worse and it just makes me more pissed off at you.
Even if we fight, even if I'm mad at you, even if it doesn't seem like it to you, you do make me happy. It's not easy, things don't go smoothly, but we work it out and move on. That's what we agreed to do, isn't it?
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WHAT THE HELL! Why did you even bother doing that!
....Why am I a moron now?
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I doubt even he is obsessed still with something so vagrant as that herbivore. Absence does not make the heart grow fonder, to that degree of need.
You cannot be Sawada. At this juncture, I would say this is a good thing.
Stop waffling.
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...Thanks.
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Yes, I still have feelings for the Tenth. I always will. It's not something I can help. But, and this is the most important thing I can say about it, it isn't something that I'm going to let hold me back. He doesn't return those feelings, and maybe he never did. I've accepted that and I'm trying to move on. I had thought that I was moving on with you.
If you're having second thoughts about us, then... We can talk about it. Things end, I understand that. If that's what you want now, then so be it. I can get my things and be on my way. Don't take that as an ultimatum, either. It's really very simple, Ryohei. Either we're together or we aren't. Just tell me which way you want it. Running away isn't going to solve anything.
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It's hard to think you're moving on when were at each others throats more since he moved in with us. It's like every little thing sets you off now. Hell I swear I could breath wrong and piss you off at this point. Its not like I aim to make you angry I just do, you gotta see where the concern comes from.
I'm not having second thoughts, I'm thinking about whats going to make you happy in the long run. I feel like I'm just driving you're stress up by just being me. And I don't want you to have to be angry all the time. But yes I like the idea of us being together but I just don't feel like that's really what you want, like I more forced it on you and you're just rolling with it to make me feel better. now thats not saying your a giving person.
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It's not you, it's really not. Well, to a certain degree it is, but... You know how I am, and this is all just a lot to deal with all at once. You're here, he's here, and it feels like I'm stuck. You've toned down the jealousy, and I appreciate that, but at the same time you just feel... different. When we're here together, sure, we fight. And instead of trying to work through things, you run. It makes things worse and it just makes me more pissed off at you.
Even if we fight, even if I'm mad at you, even if it doesn't seem like it to you, you do make me happy. It's not easy, things don't go smoothly, but we work it out and move on. That's what we agreed to do, isn't it?
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