Leaving Rose (and Terre Haute)
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This has been somewhat of a somber week. It has been abounding in frustrations and joys. I have been thrilled to be so close to the end, and saddened by knowing I am leaving such great friends behind. I guess I shouldn’t complain too much, it is nice to finally say I will have friends who I will miss and who I know will miss me, but then again, i will still miss them.
In some ways, I tried to keep my distance from some people, and for sure I let others drift away slowly (something I never thought I’d willingly do). And yet so many situations have basically smashed all my little walls and barriers. A very bittersweet time, that’s for sure.
It is good to know I have friends I am going to in Iowa. I know people there who I will work with and others I will have fun with. Even some to go to church with and learn from. But I can’t help but be sad about some of the people I leave behind.
To continue being vague lot of this is intensified by a particular situation which I won’t go into here, but let’s just say that its pretty much impossible to keep yourself from getting attached, and sometimes circumstances and timing simply do not cooperate with your heart.