le choo
i went to choo's yesterday. yup yup. ^_^ i got to see him finallies and when i went into his appie i just started crying for 2 reasons (1) i really really missed him and the thought of having to leave him in a few hours irked me and (2) i'm pms-ing and i get really sad and i cry easily. i dunno...sometimes i wonder like how in the hell are we doing this? we see each other only twice a week and it hurts both of us. i rarely talk to him on the phone and it just makes me miss him more and i dunno...we were talking about what we want to do once we get older and it makes me wonder how in the hell are we going to do this and stay together you know? the thought of not being with him makes me want to cry/vomit/die. he's just perfect. he's extremely sweet, he's not perverted at all and he loves me muchos. but whenever i start to be realistic i dunno how we're gonna do it and i become depressed. i hate seeing him only twice a week and talking to him like once a day for not even 5 minutes. it feels as if he's out of the city but he's just like 10 minutes away. and what hurts the most is that sometimes i don't even feel like i have a bf..i just have someone that loves me a lot.