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I've been really concerned about my teeth for the last few days. More specifically, my gums. Don't ask me why.
Smoking's really bad for them, right? How do I really know if there's something wrong with my gums, short of going to a Dentist's and paying them money? Is the gum looking a little grey down there? No, not there, THERE, where it bleeds every time I brush my teeth. What if I have Gingivitis? What, exactly, is gingivitis? Is it incurable?
I'm sure I have Gingivitis. I don't floss, and I smoke, and I eat a lot of popcorn that gets caught in my teeth and gives me Gingivitis, which is incurable and causes irreparable damage that makes my teeth fall out and gives me wrinkles and pancreatic cancer. Why me?
Would I not have gingivitis if I flossed, for once? I mean, what exactly does flossing DO? I remember my dental hygeinist moaning on about flossing, but I can't remember exactly what she SAID about flossing because I was sort of scared of her?
Why am I so worried about my teeth? I'm not a hypochondriac, and I usually don't give a shit about my teeth. I mean, they're teeth. But my mouth has been sort of a bad place for me, ever since two years or so ago...
What's that, Ms. Therapist? Oh yes, wait! Something did happen two years ago that made me scared of dentists and mouths! Apparently I went to a really bad dentist in childhood and he fucked up some fillings that I might not have needed, and two years ago I had to have those fillings drilled out and new ones put in! And because I didn't have insurance, we did it all at one go, which meant that they couldn't aenesthetize me and I knew pain like I have never known before! That's right!
Jesus, do you think that's why I'm stressing out about my teeth right now, Ms. Therapist? It doesn't have anything to do with the fact that my gums have been bleeding lately? Or that when I saw my dentist a year ago, he said I needed to do [something] within a month or else I'd need a root canal? And I can't recall at all what I need to do?
It's probably my traumatic dentist experience that makes me unnerved whenever I become conscious of my mouth. What's that? No, Ms. Therapist, it hasn't fucked up my sex life, but thanks for asking! No, Ms. Therapist, I don't blame my parents for not protecting me from a bad dentist early in childhood. Jesus, Ms. Therapist, I didn't even know he WAS a bad dentist in childhood, except that he gave more fillings than most children. I thought it was because I didn't brush. Give it a rest, Ms. Therapist, I am not always blaming myself for the mistakes of others. Ms. Therapist, I don't care what oral fixations represent. Yes, Ms. Therapist, I'm sure the fact that I'm always smoking and chewing on pen caps and biting my nails indicates that I have an oral fixation. What the fuck are you suggesting with that remark there, Ms. Therapist? Jesus, Ms. Therapist, do you want to just dispense the word 'cocksucker' and get it over with?
Here's some money, Ms. Therapist. No, I don't really think I need another session, Ms. Therapist. Oh, Jesus, I don't know, maybe because we spent an entire hour talking about my teeth, Ms. Therapist. Yeah, I brought it up, Ms. Therapist, but you kept us there for a very expensive hour.
Go stuff your fist up your cunt, Ms. Therapist, I don't want you accusing me of being resistant to therapy, you fucking menopausal hag. Go take care of your yeast infection and look nostalgically at old tampons and let me fucking curl up in a womb somewhere.
No, Ms. Therapist, what fixation am I showing now? Tell me, because I'm SOOOOooo curious.
Smoking's really bad for them, right? How do I really know if there's something wrong with my gums, short of going to a Dentist's and paying them money? Is the gum looking a little grey down there? No, not there, THERE, where it bleeds every time I brush my teeth. What if I have Gingivitis? What, exactly, is gingivitis? Is it incurable?
I'm sure I have Gingivitis. I don't floss, and I smoke, and I eat a lot of popcorn that gets caught in my teeth and gives me Gingivitis, which is incurable and causes irreparable damage that makes my teeth fall out and gives me wrinkles and pancreatic cancer. Why me?
Would I not have gingivitis if I flossed, for once? I mean, what exactly does flossing DO? I remember my dental hygeinist moaning on about flossing, but I can't remember exactly what she SAID about flossing because I was sort of scared of her?
Why am I so worried about my teeth? I'm not a hypochondriac, and I usually don't give a shit about my teeth. I mean, they're teeth. But my mouth has been sort of a bad place for me, ever since two years or so ago...
What's that, Ms. Therapist? Oh yes, wait! Something did happen two years ago that made me scared of dentists and mouths! Apparently I went to a really bad dentist in childhood and he fucked up some fillings that I might not have needed, and two years ago I had to have those fillings drilled out and new ones put in! And because I didn't have insurance, we did it all at one go, which meant that they couldn't aenesthetize me and I knew pain like I have never known before! That's right!
Jesus, do you think that's why I'm stressing out about my teeth right now, Ms. Therapist? It doesn't have anything to do with the fact that my gums have been bleeding lately? Or that when I saw my dentist a year ago, he said I needed to do [something] within a month or else I'd need a root canal? And I can't recall at all what I need to do?
It's probably my traumatic dentist experience that makes me unnerved whenever I become conscious of my mouth. What's that? No, Ms. Therapist, it hasn't fucked up my sex life, but thanks for asking! No, Ms. Therapist, I don't blame my parents for not protecting me from a bad dentist early in childhood. Jesus, Ms. Therapist, I didn't even know he WAS a bad dentist in childhood, except that he gave more fillings than most children. I thought it was because I didn't brush. Give it a rest, Ms. Therapist, I am not always blaming myself for the mistakes of others. Ms. Therapist, I don't care what oral fixations represent. Yes, Ms. Therapist, I'm sure the fact that I'm always smoking and chewing on pen caps and biting my nails indicates that I have an oral fixation. What the fuck are you suggesting with that remark there, Ms. Therapist? Jesus, Ms. Therapist, do you want to just dispense the word 'cocksucker' and get it over with?
Here's some money, Ms. Therapist. No, I don't really think I need another session, Ms. Therapist. Oh, Jesus, I don't know, maybe because we spent an entire hour talking about my teeth, Ms. Therapist. Yeah, I brought it up, Ms. Therapist, but you kept us there for a very expensive hour.
Go stuff your fist up your cunt, Ms. Therapist, I don't want you accusing me of being resistant to therapy, you fucking menopausal hag. Go take care of your yeast infection and look nostalgically at old tampons and let me fucking curl up in a womb somewhere.
No, Ms. Therapist, what fixation am I showing now? Tell me, because I'm SOOOOooo curious.