Oct 25, 2004 14:26
This weekend I cam to the realization that my relationship with food is the exact same as my relationship with girls. If I have a big plate of food in front of me that is delicious and sauteed to perfection, I only take a few bites. When I am at my apartment late at night and all there is to eat is pickle juice and butter, I want that big plate of food. It all goes hand in hand with the nasty case of the "wants what I can't haves" that have kept me a headcase for the past ...ohh 20 years.
When I am at a restaurant and my table's food comes, I don't want what I ordered all of a sudden, I want what someone else got. I think you understand what I am saying. Ya dig?
Oh and Hannah Craft, that girl, the girl whose name we do not say. Well, the latest is that she told me to get over her so we can be friends, and I did and then I started trying to be friends with her by texting her after my 2 week long eternal sunshine cleansing period. And they aren't antagonistic texts either. For example. They are like "Hey, just got a haircut." They're not anything. She likes to respond with things like "Lame you're lame. Why do you insist on wasting your time? Stop it. I'm not kidding."
Why do I insist on wasting my time? Well it might be easy for Hannah to just forget about someone she loved a lot for 2 or 3 years, but not me. I don't think you should stop caring about someone who had that much of a role in your life. even if its not romantic, just like be nice. People ask me why I bother...what I am hoping for. And I can't say for sure what I'm hoping for. I just have this addiciton that is worse than crack. I swear to god, I have never tried crack, but this has to be way worse than that addiction. This livejournal was started based off of her and I'm still talking about it to this day. She's just being such an asshole to me for no reason, and she wont tell me why, and I can't figure it out. I granted her her wish, and stopped trying to communicate with her, and hopefully one of 2 things will happen. She either realizes that she misses me at least a little, or I realize that someone that treats me like this, doesn't deserve me. It might sound conceited, but fuck it, the way she treats me she absolutely doesn't deserve a second of my time.
I was talking to Armen and his girl who he had similar issues with, has finally realized the error of her ways and sent him an apology package, but he's like nope, sorry, too late. You girls, you just dont know what you got til its gone. And what hannah doesn't realize is that one day I will in fact be gone, and that life is temporary, and people move and change and go away. But I realize it.
Ok whoaaa this got really serious. I'm sorry. I swear to god I'm still a comedian. Just yesterday I came up with a joke about nature's biggest contradiction being morning wood and morning piss. See, guys? Haha's? I love you all. I really do.