May 23, 2004 17:46
School is almost over... i look back and regret a lot about myself not striving through the whole year... there has been times i slacked off and underestimated school... at the end of freshmen year, i look at myself, and can't find anything improved so much from the beginning... whenever i see succeeding people around me these days, i wonder how much they are dedicating their time and effort into the things they're advancing in... i realize that success doesnt happen in a short period of time, but continuous long time of diligence, dedication, and self determination. i want to become a person who can live a meaningful life and it is hard to find the prudent way... i really need to block all the distractions out of my mind for a while... no more xanga and messengers unless there is sumthing really necessary... ppl who leave all the 'unworthy' things out of their mind and focus to what they really think is important makes me envy them... i want to try to become like that... please dont IM me anymore even if you see me on the messenger becuz im not online to socialize anymore...
in this significant period of ur life... why would u want to waste ur time on sumthing that wouldnt help you that much... it all depends on the way you look at things... relaxing and having fun doesnt always necessarily mean getting online chatting, or playing comp games... many things that are very interesting and meaningful can be things that most people consider boring and "WORK"... but look around you.... u'll be surprised by the fact that so many people are having "FUN" from their work... they're enjoying it...
but many people who dont understand those type of people dont realize that nothing can be "fun" without working up to a certain level... even computer games... first time u die many times, but u dont want to give up, u want to beat the level ur at, rite? so u play it again and again then u dominate the game and start to have fun...messengers... u dont know anyone, can be really boring, but u start to get ppl's sns and talk to more and more ppl... when ur buddy list is full of sns and you have tons of ppl to talk or IMing you, you start to enjoy it and becomes a daily habbit. but u never realize that u could be blowing off ur precious time in the moment... wut if that time is dedicated to ur school work, ur activities, or etc stuff that will actually develop/nurture ur mind...
im not trying to insult anyone, but nowadays... when i find out that a certain person doesnt know how to manage his/her time... like getting on messengers to talk to friends on a daily basis, or dedicate(?) tremendous amount of time on games or other 'less meaningful' substances, i find myself not respecting them in some other ways...
in this very important moment of ur life, why not work the best u can for a several years and enjoy the rest of ur life and everything u are interested in, after u become of a stable social position... we, as sons and daughters of our parents dont realize that how lucky we are to not worry about surviving... maybe a lot more students will know the importance of working every moment if they are not given the financial, physical support from parents... later on, when those people are truly independent of their parents, become adults, i wonder wut'll happen to them... after this moment of our life is gone, it is only regrets that are going to rise upon ur mind... u cant go back and start over... that'll be where u are, and ppl who worked harder than you will be enjoying a better, stable life... it will not be too late for those people who worked hard to start enjoying and relaxing at that point... and i believe that is where my mind is set upto... now the only thing left for me is to proceed wut i believe is rite... so while i workd on 'proceeding' them, i will deny access to everything i believe is not 'meaningful'
~Dominic Hahn~
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