Mama always knows. Always.
If I can't trust you, we might as well not bother. I can go through the movements of a friendship, but I can't give you anything more than that. If I mean so little to you that you would be willing to straight up lie to me, than you're getting nothing in return. I've lost friends before that way and if it has to happen again than so be it. I'm not willing to give up my sense of security for anyone. Fuck that. No one is worth it. I'd rather be alone than lied to.
I'm so scared of gradution. I'm scared of college. I'm scared of what it's going to do to me and what I'm going to do to it. I'm scared of a breakdown. Whether or not friends are in the picture? I have my severe doubts. I'm not one for making friends.
This cannot be happening. Should not be happening. But I can't not make it happen. I have no control over myself, let alone anyone else. Therefore I have to let it happen. But it's not my fault. All I wanted was for people to be happy, and all that keeps happening is the complete opposite.
I almost pineappled again. It's become like a regular routine for me. Imagine that.
I'm so scared of gradution. I'm scared of college. I'm scared of what it's going to do to me and what I'm going to do to it. I'm scared of a breakdown. Whether or not friends are in the picture? I have my severe doubts. I'm not one for making friends.
This cannot be happening. Should not be happening. But I can't not make it happen. I have no control over myself, let alone anyone else. Therefore I have to let it happen. But it's not my fault. All I wanted was for people to be happy, and all that keeps happening is the complete opposite.
I almost pineappled again. It's become like a regular routine for me. Imagine that.