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Dec 07, 2006 13:58

i dont even want to go to college anymore
i hate schools of all sorts
school isnt meant for everyone and i think it wasnt meant for me. or i wasnt meant for it or whatever. i have my basic motor skills im fine. i dont want to write anymore essays or give anymore presentations or have to look at all the disgusting people who wastefully spend money on clothes and blonde hair dye. i just dont want to. i'm done. in the words of derek, i need to "re-evaluate my life." what am i doing?

my freaking lymph nodes have been swollen for 3 months and i probably have mono or something and thats probably why im so tired all the time. but mono is a good excuse to not do crew. which i dont want to at all. i realized i actually dont like crew nor most of the people on it and plusit makes me a worse person.

like i dont care if im fat and lazy now but at least i dont have to be surrounded by that competitive environment where i am basically killing myself. i dont want to have to get up in the mornings and be like oh 2k todya i bet some freshman will probably bea t me. its really pointless for me because im really bad.

if and when i go to vermont because theres no way im getting into mac, i am going to find a crusty job and just get some money and then fly to new zealand and live there forever. i kind of hate corporate america. hella pollution. but i guess thats everywhere. i dont know. i dont really care about the future. i dont really care about anything. ill just find some rich old guy.
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