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I love books and films and shows that make me cry. Also songs (this song right now makes me cry). I cry because they're sad and because they're happy. The bit in my book just now was beautiful so it made me cry.
I'm so so so completely terrified. I have one semester left of university and really no proper clue what I want to do next. I want with all my heart to do the MRes in Marine Mammals here, but I'm worried my grades won't be good enough (**) and that I won't have enough work experience. And that I won't be able to fund it. Getting funding for masters is next to impossible and there's no specific scholarships for the course. I want to do it because I want to know whether I could cope with a PhD and because I have no clue in what area I want to do my PhD in. And also because I love love love St Andrews and would kill for the opportunity to work more closely with the staff at SMRU. I'm also scared of the application form, mainly because some of the sections say max 500 words and I'll probably have only 150 max.
(** I think I'm on course to get a 2.1. I don't think I can get a 1st but a good 2.1 should hopefully be achievable, as long as I don't screw up my dissertation.)
I'm so so so completely terrified. I have one semester left of university and really no proper clue what I want to do next. I want with all my heart to do the MRes in Marine Mammals here, but I'm worried my grades won't be good enough (**) and that I won't have enough work experience. And that I won't be able to fund it. Getting funding for masters is next to impossible and there's no specific scholarships for the course. I want to do it because I want to know whether I could cope with a PhD and because I have no clue in what area I want to do my PhD in. And also because I love love love St Andrews and would kill for the opportunity to work more closely with the staff at SMRU. I'm also scared of the application form, mainly because some of the sections say max 500 words and I'll probably have only 150 max.
(** I think I'm on course to get a 2.1. I don't think I can get a 1st but a good 2.1 should hopefully be achievable, as long as I don't screw up my dissertation.)