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There are some things I've learned this summer.
Emilee...I finally understand what you were saying about self respect. The other night I went over to Jay and Silent Bob's house with one of my girls from work, definitely woke up to her fucking Jay and Todd's roomate...which is fine, do what you do...but I left her there. Totally drove her over there, but I just couldn't be in a situation that would compromise my integrity, or make me look bad even though I personally didn't do anything...and now look, I wasn't the one who had to wake up in a strange guy's bed, I wasn't the one who had to do the explaining to the rest of the guys. I figured at least maybe I'll have kept some of the respect from them. And I found out I was right...got a message from Todd today..."Hey you, just calling to see what's goin on, we moved all our stuff, blahblahblah, what was up with **** the other night? Didn't think she was THAT KIND OF GIRL..."
and now I'm not THAT KIND OF GIRL.
score for me.
I also figured something out that I wish to God I could relate to Mary and have her understand. All those guys you thought were so cool in high school? yeah. they're not.
Tommy Rothman...musician...beautiful...nice...hilarious....worst guy i've ever met in my entire life. Never woulda guessed what kind of person he is from the audience of the talent show when he was playing his songs. Him, Harry Chazen, all those guys. I've never been to a party EVER and seen guys obviously try to get all the girls naked. I pretty much stayed outside the entire time. AND I didn't drink.
crazy.
anyways. weird. i'm weird. this year has been weird. its weird that im different now. its weird that i went crazy this year trying to "find myself" and whaddta know, I was there all along!?
i wish someone understood but none of you guys possibly can.
bummer for you.
Emilee...I finally understand what you were saying about self respect. The other night I went over to Jay and Silent Bob's house with one of my girls from work, definitely woke up to her fucking Jay and Todd's roomate...which is fine, do what you do...but I left her there. Totally drove her over there, but I just couldn't be in a situation that would compromise my integrity, or make me look bad even though I personally didn't do anything...and now look, I wasn't the one who had to wake up in a strange guy's bed, I wasn't the one who had to do the explaining to the rest of the guys. I figured at least maybe I'll have kept some of the respect from them. And I found out I was right...got a message from Todd today..."Hey you, just calling to see what's goin on, we moved all our stuff, blahblahblah, what was up with **** the other night? Didn't think she was THAT KIND OF GIRL..."
and now I'm not THAT KIND OF GIRL.
score for me.
I also figured something out that I wish to God I could relate to Mary and have her understand. All those guys you thought were so cool in high school? yeah. they're not.
Tommy Rothman...musician...beautiful...nice...hilarious....worst guy i've ever met in my entire life. Never woulda guessed what kind of person he is from the audience of the talent show when he was playing his songs. Him, Harry Chazen, all those guys. I've never been to a party EVER and seen guys obviously try to get all the girls naked. I pretty much stayed outside the entire time. AND I didn't drink.
crazy.
anyways. weird. i'm weird. this year has been weird. its weird that im different now. its weird that i went crazy this year trying to "find myself" and whaddta know, I was there all along!?
i wish someone understood but none of you guys possibly can.
bummer for you.