Some Stuff and my thoughts on tonights Glee
So as many of you know times have been kinda crappy for me lately. I try not to complain about to much of it, just when it gets to be to much. Things have been pretty craptastic recently. Not only have my migraines seemed to come back full force, they are now talking about a trial for everything that went down with my mother. Now I do think she should pay for what she's done to me, to my family, but I'm not looking to be paraded around in court like a freak show. Don't get me wrong, I do think that I deserve justice, and I know damn well I deserve better than what I got on my mother front, but it's hard and frustrating and I'm so tired of it all.
Then my job has gotten increasingly frustrating. They give me more work to do, with no pay raise, and while I appreciate being full time now, I cannot continue to work random hours at no notice! They call me at six to ask me to be there at eight instead of twelve, or ask if I can cover a shift on one of my only days off, then get on my case about over time. Well, when I tell you I can't because I've got forty hours, don't say it's fine if it isn't!
My ex has been hanging around recently. Leaving me nasty notes about how terrible I am to my mother, that kind of BS. He's trying to bully me again, and really I'm so exhausted by it all that I just don't know what to do with myself. I kind of just want to lock myself away somewhere, where no one can find me, and live happily in my solitude. Jesus H. Christ, is it so much to ask that I be left alone to live in peace?!
Then I watched Glee tonight. I love Glee, it's awesome, but something about this particular episode...I started crying during "A House is Not A Home" and just kinda kept on throughout the episode. It was really good, but kind of sad. I really felt bad for Kurt, especially during that last scene, and Mercedes singing Beautiful got me all upset again too. Something about this particular episode just hit hard at home, and I just...sorta fell apart. Feel super lame, but a little bit better. It did give me an idea for an angsty fic, working on it, should be posted either later tonight or tomorrow. It was really well done, as it always is though, and I admit, I was happy to see a Rachel Light episode. But Puck, where are ye? All five seconds of you lol. As always though, I was blown away by Chris Colfer's performance, and who doesn't love Burt? Glad to see him again, and I am interested to see where the Kurt's Dad, Finn's Mom story line goes.
Whatever I'll live. I always make it through.
Then my job has gotten increasingly frustrating. They give me more work to do, with no pay raise, and while I appreciate being full time now, I cannot continue to work random hours at no notice! They call me at six to ask me to be there at eight instead of twelve, or ask if I can cover a shift on one of my only days off, then get on my case about over time. Well, when I tell you I can't because I've got forty hours, don't say it's fine if it isn't!
My ex has been hanging around recently. Leaving me nasty notes about how terrible I am to my mother, that kind of BS. He's trying to bully me again, and really I'm so exhausted by it all that I just don't know what to do with myself. I kind of just want to lock myself away somewhere, where no one can find me, and live happily in my solitude. Jesus H. Christ, is it so much to ask that I be left alone to live in peace?!
Then I watched Glee tonight. I love Glee, it's awesome, but something about this particular episode...I started crying during "A House is Not A Home" and just kinda kept on throughout the episode. It was really good, but kind of sad. I really felt bad for Kurt, especially during that last scene, and Mercedes singing Beautiful got me all upset again too. Something about this particular episode just hit hard at home, and I just...sorta fell apart. Feel super lame, but a little bit better. It did give me an idea for an angsty fic, working on it, should be posted either later tonight or tomorrow. It was really well done, as it always is though, and I admit, I was happy to see a Rachel Light episode. But Puck, where are ye? All five seconds of you lol. As always though, I was blown away by Chris Colfer's performance, and who doesn't love Burt? Glad to see him again, and I am interested to see where the Kurt's Dad, Finn's Mom story line goes.
Whatever I'll live. I always make it through.