One year ago.

[totalfrog]

Exactly one year ago today I was happy. We were having the first night away we had ever had since Rory was born. We went to a wedding and then stayed in a beautiful Art Deco hotel in the city for the night. Even though I was pregnant and feeling worn out and fat and even though my mother in law caused major dramas while we we there it didn't matter. It was a brilliant night.

When we got home we realised that Abby had dislocated her elbow in a fall the day before. It didn't hurt her and my mother and sisters didn't notice she wasn't using her arm until just before we came to pick them up. I bawled like baby when we had to take her to the hospital to have it put back in. It was horrible to see her cry when they twisted her little arm to pop it back in. This was the worst thing to ever happen to one of my kids. I didn't know how I would handle it if she ever did it again. She got over it quickly. I think I took it worse.

Fast forward a few months. I had Ruby and lost her in a matter of days. A few days after that Abby dislocated her elbow again. It was still horrible to see her arm get twisted around and put back in place but I didn't cry. I knew that there were worse things that could happen.