navel gazing
I want more community in my life. It's why I moved back. I feel like I haven't done enough to achieve this.
I have had this awful feeling since I've been back of crippling shyness. My whole body literally aches in many social situations now. I want to be there, I want to talk, but I'm always so terrified I'm going to say the wrong thing or have the wrong opinion, or offend someone unintentionally (that's usually my forte). Making new friendships is tough, but I never expected to have such trouble just re-establishing the friendships I already had. If it seems like I've been cold, I don't mean to be, I'm just shy as hell now and afraid to open up. I want to open up. I want my posse back. I miss being able to call people up randomly to go get coffee with them.
I don't really know what to do, except ask:
If you are reading this, and we haven't hung out much (if at all) since I got back, I want to see you, I want to hang out with you, I want to be your friend. Will you give me that opportunity? How can I reach out to you? What can I do to bring our friendship back to life?
I have had this awful feeling since I've been back of crippling shyness. My whole body literally aches in many social situations now. I want to be there, I want to talk, but I'm always so terrified I'm going to say the wrong thing or have the wrong opinion, or offend someone unintentionally (that's usually my forte). Making new friendships is tough, but I never expected to have such trouble just re-establishing the friendships I already had. If it seems like I've been cold, I don't mean to be, I'm just shy as hell now and afraid to open up. I want to open up. I want my posse back. I miss being able to call people up randomly to go get coffee with them.
I don't really know what to do, except ask:
If you are reading this, and we haven't hung out much (if at all) since I got back, I want to see you, I want to hang out with you, I want to be your friend. Will you give me that opportunity? How can I reach out to you? What can I do to bring our friendship back to life?