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These past few days have been exhausting and confusing.
My mom had to have surgery, and it was pretty bad. Now, I don't know what it is, she is doing better. She goes in today to finish the rest up. I really don't wanna say what she went in for. I'm just confused and everything. Dannie you are my best friend in the whole wide world, and i dont know what i would do without you. I'm so blah right now. I don't know whether to cry or be happy. My mom yells at me when I break down in front of her, I just can't help it. Just seeing her hooked up to all these ivs and machines, it scares the hell out of me. She's the most precious thing ever. She's so tiny and I feel scared to touch her. My dad doesn't want me to go to Illinois, but the truth is I need to. I'm so overwhelmed with this, and I can't just sit here and let this take over me. I told him if anything happens, I will be home as soon as possible. I have to go though, No one understand me especially my dad. I miss people from school. I feel as if im failing in life. My mom is my life though, I don't care about missing school anymore, I just wanna be with her. She doesn't have a phone though, so I can't talk to her at all. My dad and I are getting ready to see her, I seriously can't wait. It's the best feeling in the world. I hate leaving her, even when I'm waiting in the waiting room. My grandpa is here from Florida, it was nice to see him. My grandparents are driving up from florida, they should be here tonight. My aunts and cousins came up last night. I feel as if im living a dream. I think my mom is overwhelmed with the people seeing her. Gosh, I feel as if im going to break down right now. Why do I cry so much? Yesterday was the first day I ever seen my dad cry. WOW. I guess I should go now. Always remember though I love you mama with my whole heart. You are my life, I'm writing this to remember how much I love you, everytime I read it. Again, Danielle, I don't know what I would do without you. Promise not to miss me to much, I will be safe and careful and I will call you or text, haha. We text to much :-*
Jill thanks for inviting me bowling. I hope to go some other time. Steph, I love you, you are an awesome girl & you are strong. Well so long journal, talk to you when I get home Sunday.
My mom had to have surgery, and it was pretty bad. Now, I don't know what it is, she is doing better. She goes in today to finish the rest up. I really don't wanna say what she went in for. I'm just confused and everything. Dannie you are my best friend in the whole wide world, and i dont know what i would do without you. I'm so blah right now. I don't know whether to cry or be happy. My mom yells at me when I break down in front of her, I just can't help it. Just seeing her hooked up to all these ivs and machines, it scares the hell out of me. She's the most precious thing ever. She's so tiny and I feel scared to touch her. My dad doesn't want me to go to Illinois, but the truth is I need to. I'm so overwhelmed with this, and I can't just sit here and let this take over me. I told him if anything happens, I will be home as soon as possible. I have to go though, No one understand me especially my dad. I miss people from school. I feel as if im failing in life. My mom is my life though, I don't care about missing school anymore, I just wanna be with her. She doesn't have a phone though, so I can't talk to her at all. My dad and I are getting ready to see her, I seriously can't wait. It's the best feeling in the world. I hate leaving her, even when I'm waiting in the waiting room. My grandpa is here from Florida, it was nice to see him. My grandparents are driving up from florida, they should be here tonight. My aunts and cousins came up last night. I feel as if im living a dream. I think my mom is overwhelmed with the people seeing her. Gosh, I feel as if im going to break down right now. Why do I cry so much? Yesterday was the first day I ever seen my dad cry. WOW. I guess I should go now. Always remember though I love you mama with my whole heart. You are my life, I'm writing this to remember how much I love you, everytime I read it. Again, Danielle, I don't know what I would do without you. Promise not to miss me to much, I will be safe and careful and I will call you or text, haha. We text to much :-*
Jill thanks for inviting me bowling. I hope to go some other time. Steph, I love you, you are an awesome girl & you are strong. Well so long journal, talk to you when I get home Sunday.