time to call it quits?
I've finally figured it out. I'm dead. This is hell. Everyday is hell. That must be it.
As far as I can tell there may only be one solution in getting out of this whole mess.....I am losing all hope. Its not looking good for me. I can't continue on like this much longer. Its too difficult. Its not getting any better. I am not even human any more. I am something else. Like a ghost or an alien. I'm incapable of humanness. I have no value to human society. I am simply alive for the sake of being alive. I an nothing and therefore deserve nothing.
Why is it that so many great, beautiful people who have so much to live for, people who love them, who have great lives die everyday in car accidents and someone as disgusting and wretched as me will go on living for years and years. Fucking shit i'll probably end up living until I'm fucking 110 or something.
lol fuck. what the fuck am I going to do. I am not well enough to hold down a job. fuck fuck fuck fuck. how the fuck am I going to support myself or help out my family. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. I can't believe this is happening to me.
why why why why why does my fucking defective waste of a body fucking fall apart for no reason in situations i MUST be in just to make a living to support myself. jesus christ I am not asking for much, I just want to go to work like a normal person without turning into a nervous wreck unable to even talk or perform basic tasks. oh god these fucking anxiety attacks are killing me. I can't take it anymore please please please please please stop stop stop please I can't live like this anymore
I fucking love social anxiety, I am one lucky mother fucker. oh fuck I am so scared
As far as I can tell there may only be one solution in getting out of this whole mess.....I am losing all hope. Its not looking good for me. I can't continue on like this much longer. Its too difficult. Its not getting any better. I am not even human any more. I am something else. Like a ghost or an alien. I'm incapable of humanness. I have no value to human society. I am simply alive for the sake of being alive. I an nothing and therefore deserve nothing.
Why is it that so many great, beautiful people who have so much to live for, people who love them, who have great lives die everyday in car accidents and someone as disgusting and wretched as me will go on living for years and years. Fucking shit i'll probably end up living until I'm fucking 110 or something.
lol fuck. what the fuck am I going to do. I am not well enough to hold down a job. fuck fuck fuck fuck. how the fuck am I going to support myself or help out my family. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. I can't believe this is happening to me.
why why why why why does my fucking defective waste of a body fucking fall apart for no reason in situations i MUST be in just to make a living to support myself. jesus christ I am not asking for much, I just want to go to work like a normal person without turning into a nervous wreck unable to even talk or perform basic tasks. oh god these fucking anxiety attacks are killing me. I can't take it anymore please please please please please stop stop stop please I can't live like this anymore
I fucking love social anxiety, I am one lucky mother fucker. oh fuck I am so scared