Love is. It just is.
Egg brought me to school, he's my hero. Did much of nothing once I got there. The Shining scares me. The Restaurant annoys me. I spent gym giving massages. I didn't like the pizza I ate for lunch. Billy gives better massages than me, and I can live with that. I started a coupon book for my mom in study hall. Like Free Hug, and Do the Dishes and whatever. I am going all out for M-day in an attempt to make her very happy and not hate me.
Came home and took a nap. Woke up at 5:23 and thought it was 5:23 in the morning and was confused why it was so bright out. Dad picked me and Rachael up, to some random art showing we went. Got back my Something Corporate CD, so life is better musically. The Grove to eat because Rach's never been there. Talked to mom when I got home, made her feel better. Also talked extensively with Amanda and Michael (bro).
I feel this longing. But it's not an empty longing like it used to be. It's just like I want more from something I already have. And it's nice that it finally doesn't hurt. It's just a dull hum that reminds me of what I still want.