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Well i am having a slight freak out, again.
I have been sitting here trying to decide what to do with my life. I mean, i thought i was set on doing film, but now i'm in college and studying it i'm kind of over it. Actually no, let me clarify, i am interested in the parts of my course which go into how editing/shots/technique can be used to manipulate the audience etc. I am not interested in the general characteristics of italian neo realism etc. However at the same time i feel like it's important in the long run for me to know these things. Problem is, i'm finding myself wanting to put my time into the Jewish studies course rather than the film course. Whereas i am dreading writing a film noir essay i'm quite excited to start my jewish civ one, simply because i find the subject matter more engaging. Also, i'm sitting here and not watching movies when if i was such a film addict i should be.
Anyway, it doesn't matter, i'm still definitely going to work in the film industry, it's just that when i start actually thinking about it my mind nearly explodes. What am i going to do? I thought editing, but and i know this sounds arrogant, but i could do more than that. It's not creative enough. So then i thought maybe producing but woah that's a hell of a lot of organisation which i'm not good at. Directing? I just don't think i have what it takes to be honest. I don't know.
I'll tell you what i really want to do though.
I want to be a documentary film maker.
I want to use things that i've learned from the jewish civ course, go to the middle east and make documentaries about the whole situation out there, from the people's perspective, and also a historical one. I think, if i do these four years of this course and then go out there and spend some time with the people (hopefully getting some arabic and hebrew under my belt) then combine that with my film knowledge someone must be interested in funding a few documentaries. The bbc for example, all those american channels. It's such a prevalent issue right know, you know what i mean? If i can make a two part documentary that explains the situation simply to the audience so that a few more people can begin to understand WHY it's important then i will have done something useful. I don't think i could stand spending my life editing romantic comedies. I don't mind that i would have no money, i'd be off travelling and trying to change people's perceptions. That's it, i think that's what i'm going to aim for. It will probably change again soon, but for now, i think that's what i'm going to go for. Now i just have to work out how on earth i would go about getting funding!
I have been sitting here trying to decide what to do with my life. I mean, i thought i was set on doing film, but now i'm in college and studying it i'm kind of over it. Actually no, let me clarify, i am interested in the parts of my course which go into how editing/shots/technique can be used to manipulate the audience etc. I am not interested in the general characteristics of italian neo realism etc. However at the same time i feel like it's important in the long run for me to know these things. Problem is, i'm finding myself wanting to put my time into the Jewish studies course rather than the film course. Whereas i am dreading writing a film noir essay i'm quite excited to start my jewish civ one, simply because i find the subject matter more engaging. Also, i'm sitting here and not watching movies when if i was such a film addict i should be.
Anyway, it doesn't matter, i'm still definitely going to work in the film industry, it's just that when i start actually thinking about it my mind nearly explodes. What am i going to do? I thought editing, but and i know this sounds arrogant, but i could do more than that. It's not creative enough. So then i thought maybe producing but woah that's a hell of a lot of organisation which i'm not good at. Directing? I just don't think i have what it takes to be honest. I don't know.
I'll tell you what i really want to do though.
I want to be a documentary film maker.
I want to use things that i've learned from the jewish civ course, go to the middle east and make documentaries about the whole situation out there, from the people's perspective, and also a historical one. I think, if i do these four years of this course and then go out there and spend some time with the people (hopefully getting some arabic and hebrew under my belt) then combine that with my film knowledge someone must be interested in funding a few documentaries. The bbc for example, all those american channels. It's such a prevalent issue right know, you know what i mean? If i can make a two part documentary that explains the situation simply to the audience so that a few more people can begin to understand WHY it's important then i will have done something useful. I don't think i could stand spending my life editing romantic comedies. I don't mind that i would have no money, i'd be off travelling and trying to change people's perceptions. That's it, i think that's what i'm going to aim for. It will probably change again soon, but for now, i think that's what i'm going to go for. Now i just have to work out how on earth i would go about getting funding!