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i was hit on a lot today at work.
it was a boost of self esteam.
this morning actually started out terribley. horrible actually.
i woke up crying. laid in bed crying. and did some stuff i havent done in a long long time.
took a shower crying. and went to work crying.
but work made my day so much better. nadia and kevin were what i needed to bring a smile back to my face.
i got to listen and dance to rick james.
some guys brought me cotten candy. and then a regular bag of candy. we have doritos and danced and sang and i got hit on by creepy guys and kevin scared them off for me! it was honestly a wonderfulwonderful day at work. it amazing how people dont even know how they can change someones day.
on the other hand their are people that dont care how much they ruin them.
this morning i was debating begging my daddy to buy me a plane ticket out to CA after i graduated.
i was going to say FUCK OCC. FUCK staying here.
fuck living with amanda.
fuck staying in this state for greg.
fuck friendships.
fuck relationships.
i can make new ones.
but then i thought
i have nice people i know.
amanda has always been a great friend.
my mommy loves me very much.
and hopefully maybe greg will give me reason to stay here before i transfer to long beach.
cos honestly if things dont work out with him. then im fuckin off. i am 100% out of here to ca with no idea what i am going to do with m y life. no money. no home. no friends. no nothing. but really really the only thing that could even keep me here until im ready, is him.
and its still.... amazing and people don't even know their own importance. someones life, or future depends on how they act, or the words they say on a daily bases. that. is fucking insane.
it was a boost of self esteam.
this morning actually started out terribley. horrible actually.
i woke up crying. laid in bed crying. and did some stuff i havent done in a long long time.
took a shower crying. and went to work crying.
but work made my day so much better. nadia and kevin were what i needed to bring a smile back to my face.
i got to listen and dance to rick james.
some guys brought me cotten candy. and then a regular bag of candy. we have doritos and danced and sang and i got hit on by creepy guys and kevin scared them off for me! it was honestly a wonderfulwonderful day at work. it amazing how people dont even know how they can change someones day.
on the other hand their are people that dont care how much they ruin them.
this morning i was debating begging my daddy to buy me a plane ticket out to CA after i graduated.
i was going to say FUCK OCC. FUCK staying here.
fuck living with amanda.
fuck staying in this state for greg.
fuck friendships.
fuck relationships.
i can make new ones.
but then i thought
i have nice people i know.
amanda has always been a great friend.
my mommy loves me very much.
and hopefully maybe greg will give me reason to stay here before i transfer to long beach.
cos honestly if things dont work out with him. then im fuckin off. i am 100% out of here to ca with no idea what i am going to do with m y life. no money. no home. no friends. no nothing. but really really the only thing that could even keep me here until im ready, is him.
and its still.... amazing and people don't even know their own importance. someones life, or future depends on how they act, or the words they say on a daily bases. that. is fucking insane.